Hey man, not related to rs but I'm sorry for your lost, i hope u feel better soon. Take care of yourself, bro!:D
Yp I feel you, when I felt sad, angry, depress I always listen to they are music ╥﹏╥
Thank you for translating.
If it makes you feel any better, I know the same feelings in a way. I also had someone who saved my life and became the person who I want to be. I've been battling depression for roughly 8 years now, but they... helped me get through it. They inspired me to write and become the person that I am today. Sadly, they died from overdosing. I just want to say that their death has impacted me. And now, I'm living for them. I don't know you but hey.. Life is something to treasure because it's so short. Live for the person who saved you because you might also save someone else's life.
he was in pain dispate being father or hasband he was alone faithing demon inside him. I loved his song ! the best writer ever! it's like he read my heart ,he helped me alot when I was listning his song I cried and felt his pain and felt I wasn't alone someone share my pain , his latest words One More Light does out!
1. Leave Out All The Rest(When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. And don't resent me and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory)
2. Crawling(I can't seem to find myself again, my walls are closing in)
3. Faint(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
4. In The End(I tried so hard and got so far)
5. Waiting For The End(..to come wishing I had strength to stand. This is not what I had planned, it's out of my control)
6. One Step Closer(..to the edge and I'm about to break)
7. Somewhere I Belong(I want to let go of the pain I felt so long)
8. Iridescent(And with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now)
9. What I Have Done(I'll face myself to cross out what I've become, erase myself and let go of what I've done)
10. In My Remains(In the fear and pain, broken down and waiting for the chance to feel alive)
11. I'll Be Gone(When the lights go out and we open our eyes, out there in the silence I'll be gone)
12. Nobody Can Save Me(Chasing up the darkness inside cause nobody can save me)
13. Good Goodbye (So say goodbye and hit the road, pack it up and disappear)
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So... A big part of my life is gone. As for those who didn't know, the lead singer of Linkin Park, Chester Bennington committed suicide. He was my hero, he saved my life with his songs. He helped me battle my own depression, only to lose the battle himself. I've been crying my eyes out, then well, I remember that today is the day RS updates. A little bit of joy for in this terrible storm, so I just want to share it with you guys, and I am grateful for something to take my mind off the pain and sadness.
Though RS is starting to get sad too especially in this chapter haha well I guess life just hates me then.
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Ryan and Cecily think on what to do with Kyon. Ryan wants to send Kyon away quietly without telling Lucaon the truth. Cecily is unsure, because she knows Lucaon likes Kyon, and even though Kyon works for Edwin he knows nothing about Intron at all; but she is also suspicious, she thinks Kyon is taking advantage of Lucaon's affections as Lucaon didn't get mad when Kyon slashed him. Ryan asks Cecily to check Kyon again to look for Edwin's influence, but Cecily confirms that there is nothing, the only royal tie is with Lucaon.
They discuss solutions. Getting to Edwin directly is out of the question, as he is the leader of Intron. Cecily wants to solve the problem from Kyon's point of view, but she also worries that in time, Kyon will become a threat to Lucaon. In the end, she says that Kyon has not received any missions, so it seems that Intron has abandoned him, and there are still a lot they do not know. Cecily then leaves to check on Lucaon as Ryan wakes Kyon up.
Cecily pulls at Lucaon's shirt to take a look at his core, her reason is that Lucaon's way-too-red eye makes her worried. Lucaon asks her when she will leave, and she jokingly asks why he wants to chase her away so soon. She asks if it's ok to bring ten hunters to the mansion, Lucaon replies ten is a bit too many, but he is not the only one in the mansion, so more people will make he feel more assured. Cecily notes to herself that she will have to keep Lucaon from getting to where Ryan and Kyon are. She invites Lucaon to eat with her but he just flatly refuses. She smiles, "What a pity", comes to a conclusion that Lucaon really likes Kyon, and wonders if chasing Kyon away will work at all.
Kyon is surprised that Ryan told him to quit, and Ryan says that it will be the best option. Ryan tells Kyon to confess everything to Lucaon and leave the mansion before everything gets worse. Poor baby Kyon is just sad and desperate... He asks if there is any other way, he doesn't want to leave because then Lucaon will be alone in this mansion, besides he has nowhere to go, he doesn't know what to do. Ryan looks sympathetic, he promises to help Kyon, but what Kyon needs to do is to leave the mansion.
Kyon hears a call. He looks shocked, as someone tells him to "Answer". Probably Edwin/Intron reaching out to Kyon and sending him orders. Shit is about to get real. Yeah. Kyon goes back to his room and takes Lucaon's black shirt.
Sigh. Oh boy here we go. Kyon waits to meet Lucaon. He tries to tell Lucaon, but he just can't do it. He wonders if he really will have to leave, and if he tells Lucaon everything then Lucaon will hate him, and he will never get to go back to their time together like before.
Lucaon reachs out to lift up Kyon's face. He seems pissed. He says that Kyon is always doing weird stuff lately. The chapter ends with Lucaon asking the reason why, demanding an answer from Kyon.
Brace yourself, the angst is coming...
Alright, my work here is done. I'm just going to listen to Linkin Park and cry again. Probably all night. Peace.