During the days when you feel well, are there people you enjoy being around?
Lucidjellygirl add my Instagram and we will talk there if you ever need a friend. Im here for you. No one is perfect and that is what makes us beautiful if everyone was perfect that would be boring your flaws is what makes you. You. I've been where you are maybe try telling your parent's how you feel but you have to stay positive you can only help yourself im just here to support you. Look at yourself and say you're beautiful because you are. I know you can do this.
Don't believe your thoughts.
You Are Precious no matter what.
This kind of thinking about yourself is just some part of you, it's not everything you are.
It's good you're reaching out to people. Your feelings are real and it is okay to feel like you do. Feeling like this does not make you a bad person. Just please don't act on those feelings and seek help.
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
https://themighty.com/mental-health/
When I'm in that mood I try to do as many things as I can ^^ like, play a challenging game, read manga or watch anime (subtitled cuz that way I focus my mind on reading them) Even studying can work, actually.
The downside is that it all comes back when I try to sleep :s so I make sure I'm dead tired before going to bed.
I don't recommend doing that for a long time, as it's not good for health (ah, I forgot to tell you, I tend to forget eating when I do that, or I just eat things like cup ramen - because you can do something else when making them)
Anyways the best thing to do is to go outside and meet with people. Or do sports (the tiring kind). It will make the darkness go away ^^
And another advice: do not care about what people think of you. I know it's impossible. But still, try. Or ask yourself if their behaviour makes sense, and if it doesn't, ignore it (just like what you said you mother does: she makes no sense)
And if you need to talk or share your thoughts, don't hesitate and come back here ^^
if you want more sympathy just go to tumblr.
I love that reply!!!
I've been dealing with mental issues for a long time and I've been doing so well but lately, for the past week, my mind is a very dark place and it's eating me up alive. I am so suicidal, my fingers are ice cold and I can't seem to shake off this sadness and sense of guilt. I probably won't kill myself but I might harm myself somehow. Whenever I look somewhere where there's my reflection, I instantly think "I wanna kill myself". I'm too much for people, even my own mother is ignoring cuz I didn't fucking take a shower for one day which evolved to me being a very complicated person who should just rot away in her room ?? It's complicated. It's always been this way tho. I'm not a perfect daughter, I have my own free will and I can think for myself and that's bothering them. I don't care tho. But this darkness is taking its toll