Suggest me some yaoi with a plot where the Seme hurts the uke so badly it makes my heart b...

Suggest me some yaoi with a plot where the Seme hurts the uke so badly it makes my heart bleed (+_+) but then the uke gets sick or maybe just leaves him and the Seme realises his importance or something similar to that. Also by hurting I don't mean those crazy bdsm stuff okaaay? (〜￣△￣)〜
Aaand please don't suggest me Hina wa Mitsuiro no Koi ni Torawareru cos I've already read that.