Oh, and I should probably include a disclaimer: I've never once found any sort of pleasure in hurting real people, or watching real people get hurt. Especially as a child. I was very empathetic and, no, I didn't run around killing the neighborhood animals or anything like that... As far as I know, I'm perfectly sane (in the sense that I don't want to bring anyone harm or watch other people do it). My kinks are strictly fantasy.
... One More Thing.
The reason I ask is because I'm curious if anyone else has had a similar experience. I always thought I was weird for having these thoughts, but I've grown enough to know that I'm definitely not alone... at least in terms of the weird kinks. So to those who do enjoy a bit of rough play, or anything really, why do you think you grew up to like what you like?
well even I can't say anything bcz it's been a year since I have started to make a story , u see I kill every character so brutally and if ever I think of them being a couple or friends I kill them more brutally I don't get satisfied until all of them aren't dead ,I just don't ,the worst part is that every character is a person from my school most of them my friends and I hate how I don't feel sorry for it ,even my friends r now scared of me except one bcz she is like me,though she kills all military people while I kill normal people like a guy would be just walking back to his home and bam I killed him sometimes it's just that I want everyone dead even in real life (sorry if I scared u )
I think you're perfectly fine! And while I'm not a psychological either, I do agree and think that it stems from what our minds pay attention to more as a kid. Examples (from other people and myself) being the snake and Mogly scene from the Jungle Book, murder/crime dramas, etc. I think it's mostly.. Luck, to put it in weird terms, lol. Some people pay more attention to females than they do males. Some vice versa. It's called preference. Is there a scientific explaination for what drives our individual preferences? .... Probably not. But this is the best I have for you!
I think I am a masochist. I tend to be aggressive and can be quite a sadist, but I secretly enjoy seeing someone and imagine myself getting rough treatment during sex. I also read rape and slave tags because it arouses me, yet irl I do hate the fact that rape is a crime. I am not sure if this can be linked to my childhood.
On the other hand, people think I am lesbian because I adore girls so much and I also cut my hair in pixie. I am not, in fact I do get sexually attracted by men. This might be linked to my childhood since I met annoying and useless men at young age. I never show favoritism to men, Í think it's not worth my time. I am not a feminist and don't have romantic feelings towards female. I also don't have any problem to interact with male. It's just that, men don't get anything near to affection that the female get. (I think I'm getting sidetrack lol)
Thanks! I was worried that someone was going to bust out the handcuffs (which I would unfortunately like). Also, when you refer to the snake and Mogly scene, what do you mean? I have never seen the jungle book... (⌒▽⌒)
Wait! Did i read it right? You hate that rape in real life is a crime?
Youre not alone with the weird kinks. I feel happy when I see people in pain. Not physical pain but psychological pain. I feel pleasure to watch a person suffer from their unrequited love.Just to see his sad face, i rejected the guy i like and acted like i dont like him. Well at least your kink doesnt affect your real life ╮(￣▽￣)╭
u r overthinking it. this is just fantasy, most of us will never get turned on in real life by these and hurt people. i like those mangas too, but in real life i like fluffy sweet relationships. lol
opss no i mean i hate that the fact that i like rape and i agree that it's a crime. i mean....yeah i also think the way i wrote is misleading .__.
So, it may be no surprise, but I have an affection for things like biting, choking, hitting, etc. when it comes to sex; I have been this way for as long as I can remember. Let me explain.
Even as a child, (yes, I know, scary) I have liked it when the characters/people that I admire in a TV show/book/cartoon are harmed in some way. I liked it when Daphne got tied up on Scooby Doo... and so on.
Currently, my weird fantasies have been given an outlet in these strange and lovely mangas/manhwas that I read, so I'm very happy. But I have to wonder... why is it that I turned out this way? I have a few theories, but I can't be certain about anything because I'm not a psychologist. So I want your opinions.
What do you think shaped your physical interests? Personally, I think it's because I was watching a show about crime at a very young age, and there were a few risque scenes in the dramatizations that often got rough and violent. I think my weird fantasies started to pop up around the same time, so this is the safest conclusion I've come to so far.