Short answer: no.
Long answer: your self-image seems very painful, and for the sake of your happiness (which has nothing to do with whether you are or aren't in a relationship), I hope you find ways to reconcile your reflection with your ideal. I suspect your self-reflection is too harsh and your ideals are somewhat, if not wholly, out of reach, ...... 4 reply
Is shame the issue here? Because frankly I think virginity is a macguffin (and you can look up the meaning of that under neologisms.) You are placing exceptional value on your virginity, but why? Virginity isn't your love. It isn't your loyalty. It's a condition of your genitals, not your heart. People who have been raped and had their virginity fo...... 3 reply
Some people only like to read the same type of thing day after day. Not me. My tastes are driven by mood, circumstances, privacy, time available to read and current interests. Things I might fancy at any given time: gorgeous art (Uki Ogasawara, Kizu Natsuki, Aoi Aki ...), wildly original storytelling (Tsumasaki Ni Kourozu, Jigoku Meguri, Not Equal)...... 1 reply
The questions have already been asked (probably): (1) Who is your favourite Seme? (2) Who is your favourite Uke? (3) Who is your favourite Seke? (4) Who are your favourite Ship?
But I'm more interested in why. There must be a reason why you're attracted to a character like, for example, Asami in Finder. It might be something like, "He's the baddest boyfriend on the playground and I could really use a fearless power suit guarding my back right now" or more like "Because he's a gorgeous and has a big cock." If you have any reasons for liking a specific character (and you don't need to have any), it would be interesting to learn all about them.
did watch anime
