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amni June 24, 2015 2:16 pm

I feel like kuroske kun is too much for shirotani.. I feel so bad for shirotani I juat want him to find someone to be nice to him.. its like hes goin through a second great trauma in his life ... the poor soul I feel like he cant take it and I wanna cry with him because he seems to be in such pain (emotionally/psychologically/mentally) ... im all about sadism and maschosim and stuff but when it comes go shirotani its a stop, and it seems its gonna be even more dark and twisted its heartbreaking ( ̄へ ̄)

    ShelyGirl June 24, 2015 4:00 pm

    No way, dude! He totally needs to feel like what he's feeling inside sexually is ok and it seems to me that he really needs that push from a dominant person to do it. The bathroom scene is a perfect case in point. He feels like his sexuality is 'dirty' and by breaking down in the 'dirty' public toilet and fantasizing Kurose giving him what he needs shows how desperate his psyche is to accept that sex isn't 'disgusting'. Kurose pegged him from the beginning and that's why he let him leave the last step open.

    I also think Kurose is being much, much gentler than the usual BL seme. I've read plenty of BL where the seme would have tied him up and had his way with him by the third chapter. Kurose is constantly pushing him then backing off and when Shirotani runs away, Kurose lets him. Shirotani is the one who keeps coming back for more. He wants the D so bad and Kurose knows it!

    RHaustner June 24, 2015 6:22 pm
    No way, dude! He totally needs to feel like what he's feeling inside sexually is ok and it seems to me that he really needs that push from a dominant person to do it. The bathroom scene is a perfect case in poi... ShelyGirl

    Well explained! It's so fucking true. Exactly what I'm thinking about the characters here and Shirotani's situation.

    amni June 24, 2015 9:01 pm

    I understand your point and the need for a push so thay he can accept himself more.. but the way kurose said he want to defile him and mess him is too mean for someone like shirotani with that much issues already .. like he cant be compared to other semes because hes gotta be gentle with sucha special case especially since hes supposedly a therapist, he must be very understanding and patient (which I feel he should be even more) because shirotani is a patient that needs proper care and treatment rather than twisting and screwing him in the head

    ShelyGirl June 25, 2015 4:04 pm
    I understand your point and the need for a push so thay he can accept himself more.. but the way kurose said he want to defile him and mess him is too mean for someone like shirotani with that much issues alre... amni

    Kurose is an ideal for Shirotani, a life model if you will, for Shirotani to feed off of his example. When Kurose, a person who Shirotani admires, says he wants to defile him, e.g. make him dirty, it's subconsciously instilling the idea that being sexually 'dirty' is something natural to feel. Or rather, sexual feelings are natural and not 'dirty' in the sense that it is 'disgusting', but an aspect of being sexual.

    Do you feel dirty reading BL? What if you did in the sense that it was a disgusting thing no one should ever read? Now what if someone you became close to said it was perfectly ok for you to love BL, "come on, try it.", "I wanna read BL with you", "I wanna corrupt your mind until you're as dirty as I am." Then, you grappled with yourself until you decided in your own mind that reading gay, smutty comics was just fine and you weren't going to die from disgust from liking that. Would you feel that being 'dirty' was ok?

    amni June 26, 2015 1:11 am
    Kurose is an ideal for Shirotani, a life model if you will, for Shirotani to feed off of his example. When Kurose, a person who Shirotani admires, says he wants to defile him, e.g. make him dirty, it's subconsc... ShelyGirl

    I see your point, and I hope thats just how its is.. well for me reading yaoi isnt disgusting, its more like fun and pleasure .. and I dont have a problem with being dirty or perverted.. basically im just worried about shirotani, ive developed feelings of care and safety for him and I dont want him to see him being hurt, though of course I want him to get rid of his problem and be fine with himself and others.. we'll see how it turns out to be

    ShelyGirl June 26, 2015 2:29 am
    I see your point, and I hope thats just how its is.. well for me reading yaoi isnt disgusting, its more like fun and pleasure .. and I dont have a problem with being dirty or perverted.. basically im just worr... amni

    Hear hear! I hope it all works out well, too

amni December 9, 2014 12:46 am

That was absolutely beauitiful I loved it so much god im crying! Lovely seriously

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amni April 5, 2017 8:34 pm

I read this yaoi once where there were two men that are in different yakuza groups and somehow they ended up locked together in a warehouse and it was freezing or something ... they already know each other and obviously love each other without saying anything and they have sex there .. but then the door opens and one of them leaves before the other ... it was just that one chapter I hope you can help me ( ̄∇ ̄")

amni March 1, 2017 4:53 am

Help me find this yaoi please
It's about a delinquent who got kidnapped by this middle aged plain office worker and kept handcuffed for days in his house.. the man fell in love when he saw the delinquent fighting in an alley and he looked so powerful that why he wants the delinquent to be his master and told him he can hit him and do anything to him but not the face so that he can still go to work and eventually the deliquent liked the situation and stayed there with no hand cuffs

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