Maybe a Seke...? Lol! Even though I'm a female, I really want to be a male...
So first of all, you are absolutely not weird at all, this is a perfectly normal way to react when you went through something like that. Most people also develop trust issues and have a hard time with dating after experiencing a rape/sexual assault. Now, do not push yourself too much if you feel too scared. Running away may not be the best decisio......
I bet many would think it'd be better as a hobby too. I had drawn doujinshi once for Gakuen Alice back in 2012 titled 'Natsume Hyuuga's birthday' or something alike, can't remember. I never did another until I started to read/write/animate for Naruto fandom. A doujinshi would be nice~ especially family fluff! These are from animation fic titled 'Ku......
This is a topic i have been thinking about soo long.me tooo i am soo jealouse of them. ahhh i also want a seme like them.takano,usami and kakami from kuroneko series. kakami is so dam sexy.haru from super lovers.*head blows away*. ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄ ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄
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