Today was ~~~~AMAZING~~~ Went to Tarboosh and ate with my History Teacher after picking us up at home. Been so long since I sat in a car. Then had a walked along lake ontario. THE BEST. MADE A WUNDERBAR MEMORY WITH MY SENSEI.
Dont want to go to school. Would do anything. Wish turned invisible. That cloning jutsu would really come in handy now. 6:30 AM. Why does time keep ticking? Wish it stopped. Essay half done. Couldn't care less now. Inexplicable uneasiness. Starting to detest everything. Mother's hollering, esp. Slip into oblivion.
Mum forcefully made me confront my current dilemma by making me have a convo. with dad and as I hate confrontations, I shut myself up in loo for 10 minutes, which was apparently my limit. Anyhoo, after talking with dad, I saw the error in me. Correction: multiple errors. Essentially, I gave up on myself, my dreams and willfully drifted into oblivion. I was afraid that now, when I'm balls-deep on this irreversible train of time, I can no longer go back and start afresh, or at the very least, pick up from where I left off. I feel that I'm lacking in all spheres of life and that gets me down. My mother keeps saying how gifted and intelligent of a lady I am but deep down, I...feel that it's all false. Everything. Many times I get so fed up of life and responsibilities that all I can ever think is of running away. For an eternity. And currently, everyday reminds me of that. That, that is the only thing I'm and will ever be capable of. Right now, another me's sneering inside that all you know is how to run that mouth of mine and go "woe-is-me" 24/7. It's time to stand up for yourself, you. Why won't you understand that? Take action. Now. Just do it. Like a strong-headed bull.
Today was ~~~~AMAZING~~~
Went to Tarboosh and ate with my History Teacher after picking us up at home. Been so long since I sat in a car.
Then had a walked along lake ontario.
THE BEST.
MADE A WUNDERBAR MEMORY WITH MY SENSEI.
: Future task :
Set tokyo ghoul's op [instrumental] as ringtone.
Followed by SS_levelled.
~All I wanna do is see you turn into a super saiyan,
All I wanna be is a dad who gets to see a super sayian...~
EXAMS ENDED!!
Thanks, mother.
For relentlessly pushing me to go there.
Infinite thank yous.
All you have to do is reach out.
"Late stragglers".
Thank you.
A heartfelt thank you to you.
From the bottom of my heart.
Reading manga for hours and so now I've grown numb to it.
Dont want to go to school.
Would do anything. Wish turned invisible. That cloning jutsu would really come in handy now.
6:30 AM. Why does time keep ticking? Wish it stopped.
Essay half done. Couldn't care less now.
Inexplicable uneasiness.
Starting to detest everything. Mother's hollering, esp. Slip into oblivion.
Azamarashi's 「季節は次々死んでいく」 (Seasons die one after another) is off the hook.
Mum forcefully made me confront my current dilemma by making me have a convo. with dad and as I hate confrontations, I shut myself up in loo for 10 minutes, which was apparently my limit.
Anyhoo, after talking with dad, I saw the error in me.
Correction: multiple errors.
Essentially, I gave up on myself, my dreams and willfully drifted into oblivion.
I was afraid that now, when I'm balls-deep on this irreversible train of time, I can no longer go back and start afresh, or at the very least, pick up from where I left off.
I feel that I'm lacking in all spheres of life and that gets me down.
My mother keeps saying how gifted and intelligent of a lady I am but deep down, I...feel that it's all false.
Everything.
Many times I get so fed up of life and responsibilities that all I can ever think is of running away. For an eternity.
And currently, everyday reminds me of that.
That, that is the only thing I'm and will ever be capable of.
Right now, another me's sneering inside that all you know is how to run that mouth of mine and go "woe-is-me" 24/7.
It's time to stand up for yourself, you.
Why won't you understand that?
Take action.
Now.
Just do it.
Like a strong-headed bull.