Ai wa Doko Itta (Yaoi) manga

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Tsunoda Ryoku 2005 released.
Yaoi
Where has Love Gone?;Where Did Love Go?;Ai wa Doko Itta; アイはどこいった?
Vol.1 Ch.5.5(end) new
Vol.1 Ch.5
Vol.1 Ch.4
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Summary

The following content is intended for mature audiences and may contain sexual themes, gore, violence and/or strong language. Discretion is advised.

Takayama is in constant denial about the fact that he is gay. While at work he begins to take note of successful and peerless Ishikawa, who eyes him hungrily - like a puma in hot pursuit of his prey! When Ishikawa is accidentally outed, he is infuriated.

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Chapters(6)

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.5.5(end) new

Mar 22, 2015

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.5

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.4

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.3

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.2

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.1

Apr 9, 2013
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2014-09-28 02:20
Ace marketer, Ishikawa, out-performs everyone in the marketing department of this highly competitive firm, but when he has a bad day, he takes out his frustrations by sexually assaulting his gay co-worker, Takayama, who has just landed a big contract. Will Takayama be able to turn this into victory? Tsunoda Ryoku always spins a good story, and her workplace dramas actually involve people working at their jobs. This one requires moving past the rape-trope (which Blue claims — April 24, 2014 10:27 pm, http://www.mangago.com/home/mangatopic/520995/ — was incorrectly translated according to her licensed copy), but unlike most of these sorts of stories, this one ends with a more equal power distribution than it starts off with. It's worth reading for that alone.
2015-03-12 03:37
Need to read chapter 5.5 on mangapark
2015-03-27 03:50
Unfortunately,, this is end.. The last story is really sweet..
2015-03-25 04:16
The seme rubbed me the wrong way at first but now I feel happy for them. It's crazy how stuff like this happens.

53 Topics

  1. Vampire Queen March 24, 2015 11:27 am

    Both stories were actually very cute, not in a typical way but still really cute. ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

  2. H~H March 24, 2015 6:48 am

    This is so cute~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ah~~

  3. Anonymous March 23, 2015 6:53 pm

    Kyaaa adorb *hardcore fangrilling*

  4. Sky Wheeler
    March 23, 2015 4:32 pm

    I don't really see how this manga is getting so many bad comments. For the most part it was really cute

  5. Ray
    March 23, 2015 1:58 pm

    I don't get it . Lots of people don't like the storyline . Ishikawa's a lot like a kid and that makes him look so cute . He might be so full of himself and stupid but reading it till the end , I can see how Ishikawa changes from every chapter .
    It shows that people can change , where's the wrong ?

    P/s : Forced sex feels damn good for the seme(s)

  6. Eye4 March 23, 2015 5:35 am

    The seme.. The plot annoys the crap out of me! Really! What kind of excuse is that, "I'm frustrated let me rape my coworker!" And no repercussions whatsoever must be nice

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:50 pm

      Ahaha ... Forced sex sounds good to me ... for the seme , I mean .

  7. KattCleo March 23, 2015 1:46 am

    .. that was the worst excuse to rape someone in a BL manga I've ever read. Like, wtf. And I've heard many pathetic ones. Ok, I've heard worse, but the worst part is that this one takes itself seriously. Usually the stories with bizarre rape excuses are outright stupid, laughable and are just there for the laughs and the smut. But, WTF man?!? He vented out his stress by raping his gay coworker who FOR ONCE did good at his job? OII, THAT'S STILL A CRIME!! WHY IS THE UKE TAKING IT SO LAUGHABLY, even if he didn't get emotionally scarred, if that's how the seme takes his stress out, then he was dropped more than once as a baby... HOW CAN YOU FALL FOR SOMEONE SO BATSHIT CRAZY?!?

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:52 pm

      Actually the seme's so stupid he's cute . Matured ukes understand so that means you're just not matured enough to understand ...

  8. Anonymous March 22, 2015 11:07 pm

    Ishikawa is the proof that Neanderthals have some hidden charm, LOL.

  9. Anonymous March 22, 2015 10:49 am

    It was pretty terrible. Not only did the seme rape the uke it was treated like it was nothing. The characters had no chemistry and their relationship does not seem like it will last long.

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:54 pm

      Okay on that 'will not last long' maybe true ... But as you can see Ishikawa's trying his best to love Motoi with all his heart . We can see that in the final chap , where Ishikawa said he wants to live with Motoi . Ain't that sweet ?

  10. yoru neko March 22, 2015 9:43 am

    wish it had a secuel

  11. Rosa
    March 16, 2015 1:23 am

    Wahh, Ishikawa is so manly. He got my heart thumping
    (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

  12. Rsawh
    November 25, 2014 8:27 am

    It's miss the last chapter 5.5 I read it on mangapark.com

    • Anne
      March 11, 2015 2:28 pm

      Thanks for the tip. I really liked that last chapter, and it left me with a better appreciation for Ishikawa and showed how much he'd come to love Takayama. Plus, it included the author afterward, which is always fun to read.

  13. Anon September 27, 2014 8:46 pm

    "All other gays are disgusting. I only want you", seriously? This line bothers me.

    • Zz October 4, 2014 7:15 pm

      Although it made as jokes but I can agree with you...as a Gay myself, I found this kinda....disturbing? but oh well, didn't take it seriously

    • aishoujo
      November 3, 2014 7:32 am

      I know what you mean, but I think it fit his character well. An assssss-

    • Zoey Zoey Zoey
      January 25, 2015 9:55 am

      Yeah me too but I think that considering how backwards Japan is about sexuality ( not that America is a hotbed of tolerance when it comes to LGBTQ but still) it makes sense-I would have prefered other guys instead- maybe the mangaka wanted to portray Ishikawa as somewhat crass and his intolerant attitude a factor in causing Takayama to fear getting involved-

    • Anonymous March 23, 2015 9:40 am

      Yeah... a better line would be "I'm not interested in other guys. I only want you."

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:55 pm

      LOL ! I know , right ? But some harsh people are harsh so just let it slide .

  14. despicableme August 29, 2014 6:02 pm

    cant believe how funny this is :D great story and I love the art - the funny faces are drawn incredibly

  15. soulofalover May 25, 2014 3:40 am

    I've always heard that if one of the parties says "NO", if u still go ahead, then IT IS rape; the uke said "Stop this" at least twice... It is true however, that the uke did not make a real fuss about stopping this forceful act - he has already considered (in his mind) that the guy was in fact his type - however, he was surprised and laughed to realize that the rapist's "venting of his frustrations" showed an emotional maturity no better than the one of his colleagues' ... he was as weak as the others he looked down upon!

    As for the last chapter, it's FAR FROM OVER ... pllllzzzz update ASAP!! Grx! :)

  16. I Thot You Was a Toad May 10, 2014 3:19 pm

    Hmm, I think that, under the circumstances, calling that stolen kiss 'rape' is a bit extreme. If someone is attracted to someone else, there is usually some awkward fumbling attempts to get that across, which end if rejected or not reciprocated. These are long term friends with a history of emotional intimacy between them. It isn't the same category as strangers, or relationships with unequal power distribution. There is love and trust between them, and I like that the stolen kiss and the plan to separate for awhile provided the catalysts for realizing that those tender feelings were mutual. It's a beautiful story, and I found their friendship adorable and believable.

    • I Thot You Was a Toad
      September 27, 2014 7:28 pm

      Er, that was in response to a topic about the second story, not the first story (which is completely different) and I'm not sure why this comment didn't end up in the right place.

  17. fujinlove May 10, 2014 2:30 pm

    Just a bit sad the uke didn't ever say I love you to the seme while he was being so adorably honest

    • keanzyn08 July 7, 2014 2:29 pm

      he did, he said " i love you" during sex when the seme said he only want him, he said it, he really did....

  18. fujinlove May 10, 2014 2:28 pm

    Why

  19. Hehehehee April 29, 2014 6:36 am

    I like the seme to rape the uk...The End.

  20. Blue April 24, 2014 10:27 pm

    Well I get to correct a bunch of y'all whining about rape. I bought the volume on Amazon and it arrived today. The text is very different and Ishikawa actually tells Takayama to teach him after pushing him over. Takayama doesn't resist and doesn't ever say anything about rape. When Ishikawa says to loosen up instead Takayma says, "What do you expect with nothing to help?" Here is a picture from my copy of the manga to prove that http://prntscr.com/3d4jud

    • Usako May 25, 2014 3:55 am

      You do realize that the English editors could have done that on purpose, removing all traces of rape to be more culture excepted . . . right??

    • Blue May 26, 2014 5:11 am

      You do realize that if it was rape he wouldn't have been moaning during it and being a smartass after right?

    • L77059
      August 29, 2014 4:14 am
      You do realize that if it was rape he wouldn't have been moaning during it and being a smartass after right? @Blue

      So if victims ever felt more than pure pain & humilitation, it isn't rape? Just because Yaoi has lots of it (with extremely implausible outcomes) and remains a pleasure to read doesn't mitigate the deed itself. In fact, part of the enjoyment stems from the non-consensual nature of the plot. Denying simply means you believe in that most cliched and preposterous phrase: "It's not rape if she asked for/enjoyed it".

    • Kakun
      February 26, 2015 2:37 am

      You know, he could have said: "I love you Takayama, you're my most precious". But still it would have been rape, because it was forced!
      Yeah, sometimes the victims in yaoi take it very well and overcome it easily and rape is reduced to a way of saying "I like you", "I desire you" or to a way of being romantic (?), but let's front it even if we like yaoi, rape is WRONG.
      Also, I agree with @L77059.

    • Blue
      February 26, 2015 3:35 am
      You know, he could have said: "I love you Takayama, you're my most precious". But still it would have been rape, because it was forced! Yeah, sometimes the victims in yaoi take it very well and overcome it easi... Kakun

      Yet again this is a FAN translation and I own the actual physical copy of the manga. In the actual copy the translation is very DIFFERENT. I don't see why you want to continue to argue when you haven't read that licensed (English) manga.

    • Kakun
      February 26, 2015 4:50 am
      Yet again this is a FAN translation and I own the actual physical copy of the manga. In the actual copy the translation is very DIFFERENT. I don't see why you want to continue to argue when you haven't read tha... Blue

      I can get your point about Takayama accepting Ishikawa's forceful act, after reading lore's review in Amazon about this manga (by the way, is it you?).
      But I must say that she shows that there could be misunderstandings about the scene: is it or is it not non-con sex? She thinks it's consensual: "*I* think the taken man allowed the sex to happen because he had been so fascinated by the other man before".
      Nevertheless, there are also 2 reviews that say: "it's rape, but it's a good reading".
      So maybe it’s like lore puts it: there are many gray areas in BL about this topic.

      The reason why I decided to talk was because the “it’s not rape” argument seemed simplified to the text/translation, while the act itself draws a forced sex in the beginning. Act that some can understand as rape and others can see it as an opportunity for the mature uke to have a good time with the person he’s interested with.
      After this discussion, I’m more inclined to the latter. Although, I still think what Ishikawa did was wrong. Remember kids, stay away from brutes and rapists!

      So thanks for your topic and reply, they made me think more about that scene ;)

    • Blue
      February 26, 2015 5:47 am
      I can get your point about Takayama accepting Ishikawa's forceful act, after reading lore's review in Amazon about this manga (by the way, is it you?). But I must say that she shows that there could be misunder... Kakun

      Not my review. My real name posts on Amazon when I review since I only put reviews as a verified purchaser. I haven't reviewed this manga on there either. I look at both the actions and words in manga. Context is important. Takayama is caught by surprise and at first he seems to resist just a bit but then gives in because it's someone he's always had an interest in. Seeing that side of Ishikawa he ends up becoming aroused and going along with it when he would have punched him had he been any other guy. Takayama isn't a pushover by far.

    • mischiefgrrl March 22, 2015 1:00 pm
      Not my review. My real name posts on Amazon when I review since I only put reviews as a verified purchaser. I haven't reviewed this manga on there either. I look at both the actions and words in manga. Context ... Blue

      I actually trust the fan translation to be more literal-- but I think the commercial translation is probably more accurate. It's amazing how differently we all read this scene. I see a classic screw-ball comedy where the lovers bicker and challenge each other-- with tons of mutual respect, but lots of dishonesty about feelings. Then the next reader sees violence and disrespect. We obviously bring a lot of ourselves to the text, but can we both be right? We really can't.

    • Blue
      March 22, 2015 10:37 pm
      I actually trust the fan translation to be more literal-- but I think the commercial translation is probably more accurate. It's amazing how differently we all read this scene. I see a classic screw-ball comedy... mischiefgrrl

      I agree with you on how it comes across. He liked him before they had sex but thought he would never have a chance so he treated him as his "eye candy". Some fan translations can be close but I'm part of a scan group and I can tell you that no translator is going to guarantee 100% accuracy. The exception to that is of course people working as professional translators.

    • Usako
      March 23, 2015 10:59 am
      I agree with you on how it comes across. He liked him before they had sex but thought he would never have a chance so he treated him as his "eye candy". Some fan translations can be close but I'm part of a scan... Blue

      Have you seen the raws of this manga? I'd be interested in a comparison of the original, the fan, and the commercial stories.

    • Blue
      March 23, 2015 8:33 pm
      Have you seen the raws of this manga? I'd be interested in a comparison of the original, the fan, and the commercial stories. Usako

      No unfortunately I don't own an original just the English release. I could ask around and have one of the translators in my group take a look but they'd be really uncomfortable. Most of our translators are guys and we are not a yaoi group lol.

    • Usako
      March 24, 2015 12:56 am

      heh, that sounds like fun to me (making guys sweat a little).