Ai wa Doko Itta (Yaoi) manga

Tsunoda Ryoku 2005 released.
Where has Love Gone?;Where Did Love Go?;Ai wa Doko Itta; アイはどこいった?
Vol.1 Ch.5.5(end)
Vol.1 Ch.5
Vol.1 Ch.4
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Takayama is in constant denial about the fact that he is gay. While at work he begins to take note of successful and peerless Ishikawa, who eyes him hungrily - like a puma in hot pursuit of his prey! When Ishikawa is accidentally outed, he is infuriated.

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Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.5.5(end)

Mar 22, 2015

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.5

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.4

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.3

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.2

Apr 9, 2013

Ai wa Doko Itta Vol.1 Ch.1

Apr 9, 2013
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2014-09-28 02:20
Ace marketer, Ishikawa, out-performs everyone in the marketing department of this highly competitive firm, but when he has a bad day, he takes out his frustrations by sexually assaulting his gay co-worker, Takayama, who has just landed a big contract. Will Takayama be able to turn this into victory? Tsunoda Ryoku always spins a good story, and her workplace dramas actually involve people working at their jobs. This one requires moving past the rape-trope (which Blue claims — April 24, 2014 10:27 pm, — was incorrectly translated according to her licensed copy), but unlike most of these sorts of stories, this one ends with a more equal power distribution than it starts off with. It's worth reading for that alone.
2015-04-13 13:00
Need to read chapter 5.5 on mangapark
2015-05-20 00:08
Was not bad. Was almost cute.
2015-05-18 04:13
So what would happen when the man that you daydream about has a request [that you seek] which is nor ordinary? Will you approve knowing that there is no future!

Modern romance story that showcase a growth between 2 characters who get to know each weakness and strength! I liked the pace of the story, however as usual I hate forceful violation in Yaoi Manga. Takamay seemed the perfect person who smiles all along even though his looked under and when he is under attack. It seems that some people would forget abuse by rationalizing their abuser's behavior [ Same mentality in domestic abuse victims ]

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  1. Natsu
    May 16, 2015 4:40 am

    While again we see the regular rape scene in yaoi not being addressed properly (I kind of gave up but I feel if I don't point it out some hater will) I really enjoyed the relationship growth between the characters. I really like this Uke in this story. I like fun and mature ukes who have a strong willed. Either way a fun yaoi that I totes suggest! XD

  2. LizMars89
    April 15, 2015 2:03 am

    The fact that so many people find Ishikawa raping Takayama acceptable boggles my mind. I can't fully fathom why Takayama himself found it to be okay. The story suffered from what I like to call "stupid couple syndrome"; When one or the other keeps doing stupid shit yet they keep coming back together in the end, THAT is stupidity at its finest.

    If this was a real life rape situation, do you think all of you would still be saying they're a "cute couple"? For Takayama to willingly choose to be with someone like Ishikawa only shows how weak of a person he really is.

    I don't particularly have anything against the rape theme in yaoi manga because it usually doesn't continue beyond the rape scene, but in situations like this I don't like when everyone is screaming their support of a clearly unhealthy relationship between two men who don't know any better. (there is NO "good reason" to violate someones body)

    And before people start yelling at me: none of us are right or wrong here. In the end we all believe what we want to believe.

    • I have a secret stash of yaoi. April 25, 2015 9:29 pm

      Yeah, the way the uke shrugged it off as if he'd had his lunch money stolen had me like lol wtf. Maybe it's because he was attracted to that guy to start with and that's why he didn't mind.

      And the part where the seme said "all gays are disgusting except you" was really annoying. The seme was really annoying, a total slimebucket, and the uke was way too forgiving.

      Judging by the comments though, a lot of people liked it. Idk, just wasn't my cup of tea this time.

  3. Sebastian Michaelis April 1, 2015 5:14 pm

    Omg so cute! ヾ(☆▽☆)

  4. liliana katsuki March 29, 2015 7:13 pm

    Gosh...that was so cuteeeeeeeeee

  5. Vampire Queen March 24, 2015 11:27 am

    Both stories were actually very cute, not in a typical way but still really cute. ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

  6. H~H March 24, 2015 6:48 am

    This is so cute~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ah~~

  7. Anonymous March 23, 2015 6:53 pm

    Kyaaa adorb *hardcore fangrilling*

  8. Sky Wheeler
    March 23, 2015 4:32 pm

    I don't really see how this manga is getting so many bad comments. For the most part it was really cute

  9. Ray
    March 23, 2015 1:58 pm

    I don't get it . Lots of people don't like the storyline . Ishikawa's a lot like a kid and that makes him look so cute . He might be so full of himself and stupid but reading it till the end , I can see how Ishikawa changes from every chapter .
    It shows that people can change , where's the wrong ?

    P/s : Forced sex feels damn good for the seme(s)

  10. Eye4 March 23, 2015 5:35 am

    The seme.. The plot annoys the crap out of me! Really! What kind of excuse is that, "I'm frustrated let me rape my coworker!" And no repercussions whatsoever must be nice

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:50 pm

      Ahaha ... Forced sex sounds good to me ... for the seme , I mean .

  11. KattCleo March 23, 2015 1:46 am

    .. that was the worst excuse to rape someone in a BL manga I've ever read. Like, wtf. And I've heard many pathetic ones. Ok, I've heard worse, but the worst part is that this one takes itself seriously. Usually the stories with bizarre rape excuses are outright stupid, laughable and are just there for the laughs and the smut. But, WTF man?!? He vented out his stress by raping his gay coworker who FOR ONCE did good at his job? OII, THAT'S STILL A CRIME!! WHY IS THE UKE TAKING IT SO LAUGHABLY, even if he didn't get emotionally scarred, if that's how the seme takes his stress out, then he was dropped more than once as a baby... HOW CAN YOU FALL FOR SOMEONE SO BATSHIT CRAZY?!?

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:52 pm

      Actually the seme's so stupid he's cute . Matured ukes understand so that means you're just not matured enough to understand ...

  12. Anonymous March 22, 2015 11:07 pm

    Ishikawa is the proof that Neanderthals have some hidden charm, LOL.

  13. Anonymous March 22, 2015 10:49 am

    It was pretty terrible. Not only did the seme rape the uke it was treated like it was nothing. The characters had no chemistry and their relationship does not seem like it will last long.

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:54 pm

      Okay on that 'will not last long' maybe true ... But as you can see Ishikawa's trying his best to love Motoi with all his heart . We can see that in the final chap , where Ishikawa said he wants to live with Motoi . Ain't that sweet ?

  14. yoru neko March 22, 2015 9:43 am

    wish it had a secuel

  15. Rosa
    March 16, 2015 1:23 am

    Wahh, Ishikawa is so manly. He got my heart thumping
    (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

  16. Rsawh
    November 25, 2014 8:27 am

    It's miss the last chapter 5.5 I read it on

    • Anne
      March 11, 2015 2:28 pm

      Thanks for the tip. I really liked that last chapter, and it left me with a better appreciation for Ishikawa and showed how much he'd come to love Takayama. Plus, it included the author afterward, which is always fun to read.

  17. Anon September 27, 2014 8:46 pm

    "All other gays are disgusting. I only want you", seriously? This line bothers me.

    • Zz October 4, 2014 7:15 pm

      Although it made as jokes but I can agree with a Gay myself, I found this kinda....disturbing? but oh well, didn't take it seriously

    • aishoujo
      November 3, 2014 7:32 am

      I know what you mean, but I think it fit his character well. An assssss-

    • Zoey Zoey Zoey
      January 25, 2015 9:55 am

      Yeah me too but I think that considering how backwards Japan is about sexuality ( not that America is a hotbed of tolerance when it comes to LGBTQ but still) it makes sense-I would have prefered other guys instead- maybe the mangaka wanted to portray Ishikawa as somewhat crass and his intolerant attitude a factor in causing Takayama to fear getting involved-

    • Anonymous March 23, 2015 9:40 am

      Yeah... a better line would be "I'm not interested in other guys. I only want you."

    • Ray
      March 23, 2015 1:55 pm

      LOL ! I know , right ? But some harsh people are harsh so just let it slide .

  18. despicableme August 29, 2014 6:02 pm

    cant believe how funny this is :D great story and I love the art - the funny faces are drawn incredibly

  19. soulofalover May 25, 2014 3:40 am

    I've always heard that if one of the parties says "NO", if u still go ahead, then IT IS rape; the uke said "Stop this" at least twice... It is true however, that the uke did not make a real fuss about stopping this forceful act - he has already considered (in his mind) that the guy was in fact his type - however, he was surprised and laughed to realize that the rapist's "venting of his frustrations" showed an emotional maturity no better than the one of his colleagues' ... he was as weak as the others he looked down upon!

    As for the last chapter, it's FAR FROM OVER ... pllllzzzz update ASAP!! Grx! :)

  20. I Thot You Was a Toad May 10, 2014 3:19 pm

    Hmm, I think that, under the circumstances, calling that stolen kiss 'rape' is a bit extreme. If someone is attracted to someone else, there is usually some awkward fumbling attempts to get that across, which end if rejected or not reciprocated. These are long term friends with a history of emotional intimacy between them. It isn't the same category as strangers, or relationships with unequal power distribution. There is love and trust between them, and I like that the stolen kiss and the plan to separate for awhile provided the catalysts for realizing that those tender feelings were mutual. It's a beautiful story, and I found their friendship adorable and believable.

    • I Thot You Was a Toad
      September 27, 2014 7:28 pm

      Er, that was in response to a topic about the second story, not the first story (which is completely different) and I'm not sure why this comment didn't end up in the right place.