Ai wa Doko Itta (Yaoi) manga

Ai wa Doko Itta (Yaoi)
Tsunoda Ryoku 2005 released.
Where has Love Gone?;Where Did Love Go?;Ai wa Doko Itta; アイはどこいった?
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Takayama is in constant denial about the fact that he is gay. While at work he begins to take note of successful and peerless Ishikawa, who eyes him hungrily - like a puma in hot pursuit of his prey! When Ishikawa is accidentally outed, he is infuriated.

Other manga by the same author(s)


Ai wa Doko Itta Ch.01(end)

Jan 24, 2011

Ai wa Doko Itta Ch.02

Jan 24, 2011

Ai wa Doko Itta Ch.03

Jan 24, 2011

Ai wa Doko Itta Ch.04

Jan 24, 2011

Ai wa Doko Itta Ch.05

Jan 24, 2011
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2014-09-28 02:20
Ace marketer, Ishikawa, out-performs everyone in the marketing department of this highly competitive firm, but when he has a bad day, he takes out his frustrations by sexually assaulting his gay co-worker, Takayama, who has just landed a big contract. Will Takayama be able to turn this into victory? Tsunoda Ryoku always spins a good story, and her workplace dramas actually involve people working at their jobs. This one requires moving past the rape-trope (which Blue claims — April 24, 2014 10:27 pm, — was incorrectly translated according to her licensed copy), but unlike most of these sorts of stories, this one ends with a more equal power distribution than it starts off with. It's worth reading for that alone.
2015-01-25 08:49
This didn't seem like a manga I was gonna love from the summary but it turned out to be sooooo good-it's sweet, without being sickly sweet. It has heart and the characters are decently developed considering that it's not that long-I love the power imbalance between the elite, salary man Ishikawa and his coworker and uke, the kindhearted, laid back & Takayama-since Ishikawa is straight the realistic Takayama doesn't want to risk the broken heart that's sure to come from getting involved with Ishikawa-but since Ishikawa id t a man to take a no easily and he's got the serious hots for Takayama-he relentlessly pursues Takayama who after getting raped by him is no longer intimidated by Ishikawa's prowess in sales-realizing that his idol is just as emotionally immature as anyone else not only makes Takayama more comfortable with Ishikawa, it also has him fsllng for him-mild angst ensues as Takayama struggles with his fear of dating a straight man-it's just a solidly good story, with an engaging plot and a lot of heart
2015-01-08 22:24
this and for the same auther
2014-12-12 10:46

42 Topics

  1. Rsawh
    November 25, 2014 8:27 am

    It's miss the last chapter 5.5 I read it on

  2. Anon September 27, 2014 8:46 pm

    "All other gays are disgusting. I only want you", seriously? This line bothers me.

    • Zz October 4, 2014 7:15 pm

      Although it made as jokes but I can agree with a Gay myself, I found this kinda....disturbing? but oh well, didn't take it seriously

    • aishoujo
      November 3, 2014 7:32 am

      I know what you mean, but I think it fit his character well. An assssss-

    • Zoey Zoey Zoey
      January 25, 2015 9:55 am

      Yeah me too but I think that considering how backwards Japan is about sexuality ( not that America is a hotbed of tolerance when it comes to LGBTQ but still) it makes sense-I would have prefered other guys instead- maybe the mangaka wanted to portray Ishikawa as somewhat crass and his intolerant attitude a factor in causing Takayama to fear getting involved-

  3. despicableme August 29, 2014 6:02 pm

    cant believe how funny this is :D great story and I love the art - the funny faces are drawn incredibly

  4. soulofalover May 25, 2014 3:40 am

    I've always heard that if one of the parties says "NO", if u still go ahead, then IT IS rape; the uke said "Stop this" at least twice... It is true however, that the uke did not make a real fuss about stopping this forceful act - he has already considered (in his mind) that the guy was in fact his type - however, he was surprised and laughed to realize that the rapist's "venting of his frustrations" showed an emotional maturity no better than the one of his colleagues' ... he was as weak as the others he looked down upon!

    As for the last chapter, it's FAR FROM OVER ... pllllzzzz update ASAP!! Grx! :)

  5. I Thot You Was a Toad May 10, 2014 3:19 pm

    Hmm, I think that, under the circumstances, calling that stolen kiss 'rape' is a bit extreme. If someone is attracted to someone else, there is usually some awkward fumbling attempts to get that across, which end if rejected or not reciprocated. These are long term friends with a history of emotional intimacy between them. It isn't the same category as strangers, or relationships with unequal power distribution. There is love and trust between them, and I like that the stolen kiss and the plan to separate for awhile provided the catalysts for realizing that those tender feelings were mutual. It's a beautiful story, and I found their friendship adorable and believable.

    • I Thot You Was a Toad
      September 27, 2014 7:28 pm

      Er, that was in response to a topic about the second story, not the first story (which is completely different) and I'm not sure why this comment didn't end up in the right place.

  6. fujinlove May 10, 2014 2:30 pm

    Just a bit sad the uke didn't ever say I love you to the seme while he was being so adorably honest

    • keanzyn08 July 7, 2014 2:29 pm

      he did, he said " i love you" during sex when the seme said he only want him, he said it, he really did....

  7. fujinlove May 10, 2014 2:28 pm


  8. Hehehehee April 29, 2014 6:36 am

    I like the seme to rape the uk...The End.

  9. Blue April 24, 2014 10:27 pm

    Well I get to correct a bunch of y'all whining about rape. I bought the volume on Amazon and it arrived today. The text is very different and Ishikawa actually tells Takayama to teach him after pushing him over. Takayama doesn't resist and doesn't ever say anything about rape. When Ishikawa says to loosen up instead Takayma says, "What do you expect with nothing to help?" Here is a picture from my copy of the manga to prove that

    • Usako May 25, 2014 3:55 am

      You do realize that the English editors could have done that on purpose, removing all traces of rape to be more culture excepted . . . right??

    • Blue May 26, 2014 5:11 am

      You do realize that if it was rape he wouldn't have been moaning during it and being a smartass after right?

    • L77059
      August 29, 2014 4:14 am
      You do realize that if it was rape he wouldn't have been moaning during it and being a smartass after right? @Blue

      So if victims ever felt more than pure pain & humilitation, it isn't rape? Just because Yaoi has lots of it (with extremely implausible outcomes) and remains a pleasure to read doesn't mitigate the deed itself. In fact, part of the enjoyment stems from the non-consensual nature of the plot. Denying simply means you believe in that most cliched and preposterous phrase: "It's not rape if she asked for/enjoyed it".

  10. Yaoi addict March 24, 2014 1:46 am

    That´s the world of yaoi
    the only one that the victim still tries to understand the criminal in the middle of rape.
    (in this case he feel like his colleage is the same as the rest of them- WTF?)

    • Blue April 24, 2014 10:30 pm

      If I knew how to typeset I would redo the chapters to the official English translation but I am not skilled in that area.

  11. SamuraiSx March 24, 2014 1:00 am

    aaw THAT RAPE SCENE WAS FREAKING GORGEOUS <3 !!!! soo sexy ! I like when relationship starts like this :3 truley hardcore love <3 and you guys who like some fluffy sweet yaoi buzz off! this is nice one ! loved it soo much !

  12. Fev March 20, 2014 1:07 pm

    Everyone is talking about the rape scene, but I don't think the uke tried hard enough to escape, I mean he wasn't drugged or tied, he didn't panicked or freezed (he made a joke instead), the seme didn't have a gun or any weapon, it wasn't his boss or other authority that could make his life hell, and for gods sake, he is a man, he could at least throw a punch, the girl before him escaped with a slap, and the seme didn't even try to go after her.
    Even if it was rape (he did say 'no' and struggled a little), it wasn't such a traumatic event that could ruin any future relationship between them. And even if I wouldn't consider the seme a boyfriend material, he isn't exactly a criminal either.

  13. Eye4 January 23, 2014 7:27 pm

    Only in Yaoi... Emphasize on "only" that rape can turn into love! Anyone would've sucker punch the bastard to death if it were in real life! LOVED the last story.. I want more of it!

    • so nice January 23, 2014 7:09 pm

      Actually the uke fell in love with the seme first so i do't think it was really rape

    • Usako February 3, 2014 6:39 pm

      Even the uke himself said it was rape. That my dears, is called a "plot device", used to make the uke realize his "idol" is not so perfect.

    • Damara February 3, 2014 11:08 pm

      @so nice: even if uke was in love with him, what he did was wrong, even after they start going out and the seme does the same thing again, it would be still "rape". (i mean if its not a bdsm play or smthing like that)

    • Anonymous February 6, 2014 10:38 am

      @so nice:He might have liked the guy, but still, rape is rape...This kind of thing is actually plausible though.(The victim can develop feelings for the rapist, but that is rare.. Not to mention a pathological condition!)Even between man and wife, such an act is considered to be rape.

    • yeah ya! February 16, 2014 10:53 am

      Well not really rape is also a common trope in shojou smut, josei and much worse in hentai mangas. Heck it's even rampant on other erotic works and medias

    • Blue April 24, 2014 10:29 pm

      Nope not rape. In the official version of the manga the word rape was never used. Even in the second part the next day where they meet instead it starts with, "A few days ago, I had sex with a co-worker..." "My lover was..."

  14. KusamaRicchan November 30, 2013 11:31 am

    I want more of daisuke OAO


  15. Haru November 8, 2013 1:41 am

    Love it!

  16. okay October 20, 2013 2:15 am

    Art was nice. Why did the nice relationship have to begin with a rape? *SIGH*=333

    • NO November 11, 2013 5:29 pm

      my mom would agree with ya time and time i would hear her say why does the yaoi always have to be so violent.

    • steve February 20, 2014 4:31 pm

      I don't know you, but i already like your mum XD

    • Usako May 25, 2014 3:53 am

      . . . . my mother once paid my sister to go rent a gay video, just so she could see what it was all about . . . . .

    • Anon September 27, 2014 8:48 pm

      I totally share your sentiment.

  17. Lily Pup October 3, 2013 6:38 am

    Love it! So cute

  18. De September 15, 2013 4:30 pm


  19. romanticyaoi August 29, 2013 3:08 am

    Wow. Loved both stories. Wanted more!

  20. Mie April 17, 2013 11:56 pm

    Loved it! Nice to read :)