http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/12_ji_kara_hajimaru/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/takaramono_wa_hako_no_naka/
This one probably but he ended up being traumatized that he is now the seme
it's the second one, thank you ^_^
sorry but i think the cover confused me it's not the second one after all T_T
Puchitto Hajiketa
it's not what i'm looking for but it seems interesting thank you :)
all i can remember is that the uke was older and the seme was younger and that the uke was afraid of having sex with the seme because of his first time with a man in a hotel when he was young, the man was so sadistic; he wanted to see uke's crying face to the point that he intered him and teared his ass and the uke was hospitalized by his friend and he was traumatized by it i think his friend were from a gay bar i don't remember clearly,