I wish I could like this comment more than once. I´ve reread your comment 4 times now and it all makes sense. After finding out that Law was behind the kidnapping, I was really perplexed over why Law looked so genuinely hurt whenever Jesse would accuse him of this crime as we saw when Law was explaining the past from his POV in ch 16. So perhaps due to Jesse´s reactions, he also got confused and `forgot`that he actually created that scenario and caused Jesse´s pain.
I really like that you used the word "overestimated" because that´s when Law´s mother once said about him too. Like you said, Jesse is his own person and Law is not. He said at the end of the chapter that he sometimes could not discern himself from Jesse and if a person looses themselves from imitating someone, that shows they never had themselves.
I also thought about that cigarette in ch 29 but what made me realize that Law was slowly loosing his grip on reality was not when Jesse burned his hand but instead when Jesse was digusted and asked him what was wrong with the taste of the cigarette and he responds with "aren´t all cigarettes like that?" He spent so much time in Moritat he started to forget what cigarettes actually taste like. And I think that is why he ended Moritat. I´m not too sure actually. According to Jesse, it was because Law was afraid of standing on equal ground with him but it could be as you said that Jesse was behaving so different from his imagination/expectations or it could be because he was afraid he might forget where `reality`is and end up loosing himself. He might have realized that all nice dream must end eventually and that is it. I think the reason he ended Moritat was all these reasons mentioned above.
Wow your comment was on point. It made me understand the story better.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, but one question straying from the main concept that revolves around Law's delusions and thoughts, what really happened to each of their family?
How did Law's parents die and did they really die?
Is Jesse's parents dead?
Also another question
Did Law killed those shareholders or sth that know about Jesse's kidnapped?
I feel like that was fake, like it was just a lie in Moritat, as Law explained to make Jesse feel like when there is nobody is left for him
I know its a bit late to answer your question, but yes Law´s parents died in reality. It was a car "accident" that was caused by Jesse´s mother. Jesse´s parents are alive and fine. The terrorist attack happened inside Moritat only. Yes Law killed the shareholders inside Moritat, after all, its a different dimension so he can do and get away with anything , even murder. I believe he killed the shareholders so he there would be no one left beside Jesse, just as you said.
So the shareholders aren't dead in real life?
No, other than Law´s parents, no one is dead in real life. Everything shown in the first 30 chapters is a lie. The shareholders and Jesse´s parents died in Moritat only. I would really suggest you to re-read Moritat since you seem to have missed a few things.
I think Law may just have finally realized what his obsessions were doing to himself. Remember the part when Law explained his habit of burning his palm with the cigarette and when Jesse burned him? Law said that if he does not feel pain, as the administrator he would be able to maintain the reality and stimulation separate. But he was surprised when Jesse burned him; perhaps he felt pain and all that he knows to be fake, and of his own creation, was all too real for him. In the last chapter he also uses the word 'aftermirage'. An aftermirage is when the effect of the stimulus is continuous despite the fact that the stimulation has ended.
Now we need to consider the most confusing part of the webtoon: the dreams and realities. Both Jesse's and Law's stimulation begins and ends randomly. When Jesse is confused of all lies of Law, Law must also have been confused of his own lies/created scenarios because of Jesse's reactions. Simply put, Law tricked & hooked Jesse under his 'experiment' of subconscious realization to truly see what Jesse feels for him, thinking and hoping that in the end, in the very deep, Jesse must have felt something; at least affection of some form. Instead, he continuously experiences doubts, suspicions, and even 'give-up' state of Jesse; state which is so different from Law's imaginations, expectations, and his own reactions in the past. That is why at the very end of the 'experiment', instead of resetting the moritat he revealed everything and set free Jesse to the real world.
But Law, himself was still trapped in his own memories. He keeps saying 'do not control me'. But to whom does he say that? He first says this to Jesse, then to his parents, then finally to himself. In the end, just like Jesse said while embracing Law, Law is just a stray that's lost in its own big world and confused. In reality he needed the leash on him to survive, which he accepts when Jesse puts it on.
My conclusion is this: Jesse may be arrogant and rich, spoiled individual; but at least he is his own person. Law, on the other hand, has always been 'handled' and labelled as the infidelity, servant, toy, and etc since childhood; he was never a person. For so long he refused to accept this reality. So he blames Jesse. Law knew Jesse was more complete as a person, which he envied. But envy has, at certain point, turned into admiration and then to love; he was silently begging for affection of Jesse, so that in turn he could be completed. And it is this love that caused all these dreams and delusion of moritat; love that is so great that he wants to hurt Jesse, kill Jesse. But in the end, he is still incomplete; the moritat 'experiment' proved nothing more than the fact that Jesse is more capable and Law overestimated himself.