Holy shit this was an incredible read! Our main character is a vampire that came from a vampire family, but one day when he was still young his entire family was slaughtered by a pastor from another church. That is also a vampire. However, this pastor vampire is hunting For the pure vampire, and somehow in his journey, he took in this young vampire. We can assume that he probably wants to use our main character. In order to do so he needs our Vampyre to wholeheartedly. Love him and complete a ritual. Our young vampire has tried so hard to do so, but the first time they did this ritual it failed because our vampire did not love our pastor, even though he says so, and listens to everything our abusive pastor says. Towards chapter 28 we realize that our young vampire doesn’t know what love is because he never grew up with it. He only knows how the pastor has treated him (which is complete cruelty, and sexual abuse). He is only doing everything out of fear to survive. He thinks he hast to love the pastor to survive.
On a random occasion, he meets a human that was having sex. It was the first time he love so passionate, and he reached out to the human to learn from him. Since then they have been engaging in activities and dates. That is what we consider to be love. Our main character vampires definitely falling in love with our human, but doesn’t recognize it himself and nor does he want to because he swore his being on his savior, the pastor.
I really love this vampire X vampire sex and also the twisted love that has formed between the interesting, relationship or main character has with his savior, but also at the same time his abuser.
