I read it before and felt that this story is a trash because full of rape. But now I reread it and wow, Sumire is... just trying to feel nothing and unconsciously sees no value in himself after he used all his luck just to be born. I enjoyed the story.
COMPLETE Having barely escaped being killed before birth by his parents, he thinks he's used up a lifetime worth of good luck... Sumire, a bartender who attracts only good-for-nothing men, has given up on happiness. Estranged from his parents, he should have gotten used to being alone... But a distant relative who's a university student, Yuushin, comes to spend some time with him, and Yuushin's feelings for Sumire grow stronger and stronger... A heartrending age-gap romance.