(Idk how to add spoiler warning, but "this topic may contain spoiler" or whatever. Not may-- definitely*) IDK why I thought I could get emotionally invested in this story ugh... Tachio is an asshole, it's frustrating that Kota didn't realize his own feelings earlier, it's even more frustrating that Tachio took so long to realize both of their feelings and also that he never outright said I love you. The fact that they didn't end up as official boyfriends. Ugh it's all so frustrating. Also you'd think Kota had said "he's more gentle than you" as a way to convince Tachio to be gentle when they got together again, but he literally just went straight for penetration ugh I hate when characters try so hard to pretend they aren't gay. It's so fucking cringe and angers me. The stigma of being gay makes me so unimaginably angry. I shouldn't have to be self conscious about who I like and neither should they. I don't wanna think about real world crap while trying to get horny. If I could give this a 1/10 I would. It's only a 1 instead of a 0 because the art was OK and not cringey. But even the sex was underwhelming, so it's not like this is a good "porn without good plot" read either. If you like frustrating relationship dynamics with no emotional payout + censored plain-greek-yogurt flavored sex (I wouldn't even call this vanilla, that's too tasteful for this ish), then sure, read it. Otherwise, don't bother.
the flashbacks ch4-6 kinda ruined the story for me cuz i really liked it at the beginning didnt finish reading cuz seme is actually an asshole who sa-ed uke a lot
