Bittersweet hmm

Since childhood Eiji has always had accidents that would have been fatal, but he always survived unscathed. Because he sees things that normal people don't see, he realizes that there's a mysterious shadow that always saves him. But what is it? So he decided to find out what this mysterious shadow was and wanted to thank that shadow. And to call him, he tried to jump off the balcony of his apartment.
Here comes the handsome God of Death appearing before him. Will Eiji be able to thank him?

I can't have pure love… Everything starts when a timid young man falls in love with his helpless neighbour. Yuuto, a college student who has given up on everything, lives alone. One night, a neighbour and a playboy college senior, Sora, forcibly invited himself for drinks and Yuuto accidently confessed that he is gay. Yuuto thought he would be disliked, but Sora approached him enthusiastically. Although Yuuto is surprised, he didn’t refuse Sora’s embrace and gentle touch

Shiroiwa Mizuki, who has been repressed by his mother for any sexual acts, has his body being molested by a stranger on the same train while attending school. Mizuki accepted the act even though he was able to avoid it. One day, Mizuki finds the man-Shinobu Kurose and offers a deal. "... I want you to violate me more." Shinobu responds to the "command" of a masochistic Mizuki. However, in the days of indulging in immorality and drowning in desire, Shinobu, who was emotionless, gradually began to