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Tears of pain in the beggining, Tears of joy later

Here are BLs (mostly shounen ais) that start off messy and painful and ends beautifully and most importantly worth reading.
Tags: Angst Happy endings Shounen Ai Yaoi Painful
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Chew and Swallow

 9.2(481 voted)
Complete
Author(s): Gawee
Genre(s): Shounen Ai / Webtoons
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Angst meter: 10/10

The sadness in this manhwa is THROUGHOUT, I mean it. This story relives the main character's high school life, when, where, and how he fucked up. Despite everything, he pushes through, with the help of the main lead, he handles his problems one by one. The main character's hardships is what will make you pity him, along with how realistic his choices are.

TW: Sexual Assault, Violence

10 08,2022

Smells Like Green Spirit

 9.3(132 voted)
Complete
Author(s): Nagai Saburou
Genre(s): School Life / Yaoi / Psychological / Drama
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Angst Meter: 11/10

This manga focuses on the problems commonly encountered by LGBTQ+ members. Homophobia, gender crisis, oppression, etc. There are two main characters, one is openly gay and the other, closeted. They are both treated differently by the people around them, but in a twist of events they'd soon become friends. However, in this story, we are shown and reminded of how cruel the world really is towards them.

TW: Bullying, Attempted Rape

10 08,2022

17 Seito

 8.2(182 voted)
Complete
Author(s): KINOSHITA Keiko
Genre(s): Drama / Romance / Yaoi
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Angsty

10 08,2022

My Starry Sky

 9.2(243 voted)
Complete
Author(s): Confeito Planet
Genre(s): Drama / Slice Of Life / Shounen Ai / Webtoons
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Angst Meter: 11/10

10 08,2022

Warehouse

 9.0(493 voted)
Complete
Author(s): Team Killerwhale
Genre(s): Drama / Yaoi / Mature / Psychological / Webtoons
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Angst Meter: 5/10

10 08,2022

For My Weirdo

 9.0(198 voted)
Complete
Author(s): DO.D
Genre(s): Yaoi / Smut / Webtoons
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Angst Meter: 7/10

10 08,2022

Haruka Tooki Ie

 9.7(187 voted)
Complete
Author(s): yatsuda teki
Genre(s): Romance / Shounen Ai / Tragedy
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Angst Meter: 9/10

10 08,2022

Innocent wo Kegasu Kiss

 9.1(592 voted)
Ongoing
Author(s): Emu soutome
Genre(s): Yaoi / Smut / Fantasy
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Mild angst

10 08,2022

Cover Up

 9.1(624 voted)
Complete
Author(s): gyaga
Genre(s): Smut / Yaoi / Webtoons
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Angst Meter: 4/10

10 08,2022

Hitori to Hitori no 3650nichi

 9.0(217 voted)
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Author(s): hitomi
Genre(s): Yaoi / Drama / Psychological / Smut
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Angst Meter: 8/10

10 08,2022

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kokomomo7 September 22, 2025 6:34 pm

I will be putting the descriptions, my own. So those with judt a story summary, I completely forgot as it's been 3 yrs since I made this list .

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kokomomo7 September 22, 2025 6:35 pm

Still, I can believe that I've read most of these 3 yrs ago?! Some of them are still so fresh to me lol

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kokomomo7 September 22, 2025 6:13 pm

wow what the heck, I completely forgot ab this list

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Maddufuckinsadist August 10, 2022 10:44 am

i'll put descriptions later

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