Best/inspo for ur life

Mc constantly rereads and idolizes a female character from a book ans searches for people woth same characteristics.

I know its a red flag but i kinda wanna have a book i can read and be inlove with a character to the point of puttinf myself in the love interests shoes. Im lonley and think having aomething special to reread is neat.

The idea of accepting gifts as thank yous for helping people as a way to remember them/the experience and also in a way tp make them feel less bad about having your help ans even havinf some control? Since people may not want help, feeling like its a sign of weakness/u oweing someone. So giving a reward/a thankyoy is a gpod way of helping those people?