guys dealing with past ghosts/pain

still carries the weight of his parents car crash. if he hadn't asked them to come home in a hurry. he constantly tries to not be selfish or to bother others. he really struggles with sharing what's worrying him, because of that need to not be selfish and burden someone else.

Shingo has all versions of trust issues and abandonment issues, from not being cared for as a child/nurse kitten.
trust is very complicated to him

lots of feeling of guilt, from abusing his ex. (an ex mind you, he was very much aware loved somebody else.)
but also lots of trauma from all the abuse and humiliation he endured for years at his past job.
He feels like he can't trust himself with a lover, or be happy like that.
His lover now, even met his ex, and is trying to get him to deal with these wounds.

past demons of feeling guilty and running away, after he feels responsible for his lovers injury.
Some several years later, he tracks him down, and personally deals with those demons for him.

oh god, these two.
both their families, murdered a majority of the other family.
Both abused each other. one stabbed the other. they both have so many nightmares about their dead family members, their horrible deaths, and guilt for being with someone of the family who caused them pain.
But despite it all, and all the struggles, they stay together. they love each other. they are trying to become each others light, in their dark lives.

got one who is sexually harassed by his step father/raped. He did it as a form of getting back at his mother. (?)
then we have the seme from an abusive family originally, his mother scarred him, mentally and physically. cause having him, made her not a beautiful younger woman, but an older mother. she resents him for it. she has mental issues.

our seme has a heavy past, of being in america,i believe, with an attendant who was watching out for him. He was sleeping with him, while knowing he was getting married, and expecting a child. comments of his body is always so cold, that he needs his body warmth to keep him alive. He ends up dying, while breaking his heart. later, at his graveside, he meets his wife and their son, who she calls by his own name. she says his father picked it out and kept calling for him at the end of his life.

kaoru is terrified of becoming "ugly", like his mother. a thing seathing in jealousy and nastiness. It kind of haunts him at times.
But daigo, his lover, certainly helps him love himself better. and get some distance from these nightmares.

canale is haunted by list past. be it, the lover he believes he killed 8 years ago. Or be it being rapes all the time growing up, and being raised as an assassin. or that his mother killed herself soon after he was born, his older brother hating and poisoning him, leading to him being blind. His brother will never stop until he is dead. neither will any of the other two ghosts.
(even though said lover, actually survived.)
With Ayace, he takes strength from him, to be able to confronts these.

we have our boy from lovers and souls, who's still haunted several years later, by the death of his lover. currently selling himself once more and thing nothing of himself, cause his heart is still all tattered and torn.
will he find a new romance, that might interest him to change?