!!Ongoing Stories!!

I had read this when I was younger, I believe this was the first shounen ai I had ever read, however it had not been updated for ages and by the time I had found this again (many years later) it was already complete!
For some reason even though I love this, I can't bring myself to read it??

Can't remember where I dropped this.
Love this story, it was one of my favourite shoujo stories, however this has been going on for over 20 years and I don't feel like it has progressed very far. I feel like instead of character development with the (numerous) characters already present this story keeps having the same rinse and repeat arc's where they introduce NEW characters that we'll barely ever see again and don't really care about!
Had to put this on quits because chapters rarely come out

This has unexpectedly risen to one of my favourite mangas ever. I love how they (both her friends and her boyfriend) don’t love her “despite” her disability or try to have her change or fix it, but love all of her including her disability. I love her personality and I’m in love with 5he male lead and how caring and devoted he is towards her.