.. and then there was rape sigh

1st by the ml (but it was the only way to save him, and he consented while delirious so ig its a pass)
2nd by the? idfk love rival? vampire dude at around chapter 14

seem to remember the ml rapes the mc first time?

begins with rape, but contrary to other stories the ml acrually shows remorse and they TALK about it later in the story. The ml is actually amazing, seems like the author just.. started with a typical yaoi trope for no good reason

there is a scene i think (?) between the mcs where its not consensual, and maybe? one where one of them gets raped by an outsider

well? mc keeps saying no during sex and their first time is with him drunk off his ass which counts as rape