he did not choose to die. the meaning was lost in translation, but the wound was fatal. he would've eventually succumbed to it, and went to the library to read the rest of eiji's letter. despite all the near-death experiences, his cause of death is so insignificant, but eiji's words, that his soul will always be with him, grant him salvation and a last dose of happiness, and that's why he was smiling in the end. it's an incredibly bittersweet ending
made a mistake reading this manga... I read this wayyy before the anime was even announced and just happen to stumble across it today and had the urge to just comment here. I've successfully clouded all my memories about this manga and even convinced myself to make the end a happy ending because of how the ending affected me when I was just like 13 years old. Yeah I really liked the ending where Ash and Eiji runaway together and live in the countryside and grow old together. Yes thats how it ended... (the copium is real but just leave me be ;) )
"Sayonara, America. Sayonara, New York. But im not saying "sayonara" to you... Ash. Because i know this isnt good-bye. I know we'll see each other again someday."
I get that you reap what you sow and at the end all the killing would bite you in the ass someday...but why did he just stay there in the library and bleed out to death??? Sing said that the knife missed all the vital organs which means he decided not to call for help and just die! Was he tired of fighting? Did he feel that he deserved to die after all the crimes he'd committed? Did he think that a war with the Chinese will erupt if he didn't die? Was reading the letter more important than seeking help? Or was it just the author's decision to end his role even after being shot and stabbed multiple times?? I think about this ending all the time! Why build an image of a super man and then end him with a simple non life threatening knife wound? Anyway, enough venting I'll just imagine an ending with Ash and Eiji living happily ever after and forget about this one
While reading this, I always felt like Ash is tired of living. He is tired of everything. His life is shit. He even learned to kill people. He learned to use his body to seduce. And many more, even though he never wanted to live like that. So when he sees the opportunity, maybe he is just to tired to even move and try to... survive. He is smiling in his death, so maybe he really is happy about it.
It's just one of his selfishness in life that he choose death, and leaving those who loves him with all his soul (eiji). I'm mad at Ash for being selfish. For not thinking about Eiji. But remembering how hard and fucked his life is, it was probably bot a bad ending for "Ash".
I too, still gonna pretend ash never died and lived happily ever after with eiji tho. I'm imagining thier lovey dovey moment in the future and reading all alternate doujinshi to deceive myself LOL
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How ash dies always angers me istg.
if YOU GONNA KILL HIM ATLEAST GIVE HIM AN EPIC DEATH UGAHSHSH.
im joking, Im happy that he could die peacefully with eiji's letter by his side.
im still crying about this T^T its have a high damage ┗( T﹏T )┛
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he did not choose to die. the meaning was lost in translation, but the wound was fatal. he would've eventually succumbed to it, and went to the library to read the rest of eiji's letter. despite all the near-death experiences, his cause of death is so insignificant, but eiji's words, that his soul will always be with him, grant him salvation and a last dose of happiness, and that's why he was smiling in the end. it's an incredibly bittersweet ending
There is no banana and fish... but there is pain
made a mistake reading this manga... I read this wayyy before the anime was even announced and just happen to stumble across it today and had the urge to just comment here. I've successfully clouded all my memories about this manga and even convinced myself to make the end a happy ending because of how the ending affected me when I was just like 13 years old. Yeah I really liked the ending where Ash and Eiji runaway together and live in the countryside and grow old together. Yes thats how it ended... (the copium is real but just leave me be ;) )
You're not the only one, I too read this maybe a bit too young but I suppressed a lot hahaha
WWAHHHHHHHHH
HELP, I'M STILL AT THE RESTAURANT
just why tf did i reread this im just opening back a healed wound T_T
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"Sayonara, America. Sayonara, New York. But im not saying "sayonara" to you... Ash. Because i know this isnt good-bye. I know we'll see each other again someday."
STOPPP
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I get that you reap what you sow and at the end all the killing would bite you in the ass someday...but why did he just stay there in the library and bleed out to death??? Sing said that the knife missed all the vital organs which means he decided not to call for help and just die!
Was he tired of fighting? Did he feel that he deserved to die after all the crimes he'd committed? Did he think that a war with the Chinese will erupt if he didn't die? Was reading the letter more important than seeking help? Or was it just the author's decision to end his role even after being shot and stabbed multiple times??
I think about this ending all the time! Why build an image of a super man and then end him with a simple non life threatening knife wound? Anyway, enough venting I'll just imagine an ending with Ash and Eiji living happily ever after and forget about this one
While reading this, I always felt like Ash is tired of living. He is tired of everything. His life is shit. He even learned to kill people. He learned to use his body to seduce. And many more, even though he never wanted to live like that. So when he sees the opportunity, maybe he is just to tired to even move and try to... survive. He is smiling in his death, so maybe he really is happy about it.
It's just one of his selfishness in life that he choose death, and leaving those who loves him with all his soul (eiji). I'm mad at Ash for being selfish. For not thinking about Eiji. But remembering how hard and fucked his life is, it was probably bot a bad ending for "Ash".
I too, still gonna pretend ash never died and lived happily ever after with eiji tho. I'm imagining thier lovey dovey moment in the future and reading all alternate doujinshi to deceive myself LOL
hahahaha you did not js recommend me the manga that put me through hell..
If you really wanna go thru hell read Zankoku Na Kami Ga Shihai Suru