This gonna be long but I wanted to get it off my chest a bit coz I never share this to anyone. Not to my family or my besties. I cant think of a reason why I dont want to share it with anyone in my life. I just think that I dont want to. When we were 15 yo, this boy was gonna go to different high school and I suddenly felt like its gonna be very lonely coz we were quite close. He plays sport too. I like listening to him talking especially when he told me about his soccer matches. Plus he's funny too. So when we started high school, we still in contact with each other regularly. Of course we didnt meet since its quite a distance. Quite later, I felt like something lost. It was like an incomplete life or something. I can't explain it well. But I know it has something to do with him. When I realized the feelings I have for him, I wanted to confess but it took me few months to gather the courage to do so coz I was afraid I'm gonna lose what I have with him during that time. Even so, I determined to take a step ahead. So when we were chatting as usual, using mobile phone of course, I confessed to him. He didn't reply. I thought maybe he was shocked or surprised and he wanted to calm himself first before replying to me. I can't sleep coz I felt anxious. But the reply didn't come even the next morning. And the next two mornings. So I messaged him again but I was given the silence again. The silence continued. I started my college education last year. Far from my city. And this year, I finally saw him. In the same college as mine. He walked from the opposite direction and our eyes met. I know he recognized me coz he looked kinda shocked. He didn't put a single smile and just walked past me. After almost 5 years, I finally got the concrete answer. Tho it was the same silence, but his action was clear enough. I don't know if I waited for him these past 5 years but I didn't dated anyone for the whole time. There some times someone approached me during the past 5 years but I don't know. It just seems like it won't work out. And for him, I'm sure I gonna see him around again in the future. Maybe tomorrow. Who knows. Tho I got my reply, I still have lots of questions in my head. Was he shocked by my confession?? Is he mad?? Does he hates me because of it?? Why the silence?? Can't he give me a proper reply?? Not sure if I ever regret confessing but I definitely sure I lost something. He was one of a very few boys that I got along with. So my biggest question now 'was it my fault that things turn out this way??' I'm actually holding back my tears typing this.
I think u should get over him and it's not ur fault. He is just confused that his best friend fell in love with him unexpected so it was a pretty shocking for him and he don't know what to say to u, so he is running away from reality. I would say go talk to him and ask him his answer and tell him that "If u hate my confession! Fine but don't treat me like i'm some kind of a ghost, it's really painful for me, I don't wanna lose my best friend" and say it with teary eyes and he will properly tell u his answer and it's possible u can be friends again.
Thank you very much for your reply. I did think of talking to him now but I can't seem to find the courage that I used to have back when I confessed. And even if we are to be friends again, I think most probably things will be different. Not that I don't want to get over him but somehow I feel that things just don't go well with me. I wonder if I take these things too seriously.
Thank you very much for your reply. I did think of talking to him now but I can't seem to find the courage that I used to have back when I confessed. And even if we are to be friends again, I think most probabl... Lady Nyx
Dude!! Be strong and find the courage to say it, I was gonna say that write a letter to him but I was thinking it would be creepy, so it's better to say it straight. Well if it was me I wouldn't give a damn and enjoy my life with my new friends and have a bf and show him i'm doing great without u instead of stressing myself for him. If he ignores u! U also do it. He is just enjoying his life and ur just being miserable. So my advice is talk to him or not it's ur choice but please get over him.
I'm not gonna say that I've made myself miserable coz of him. This is just a side of my life. My love life if I should say?? I do enjoy the other aspects of my life. I mean if I'm not, I'll not be here reading all the manga. And I hang out with my friends too. It is just that one part that I do not enjoy.
I'm not gonna say that I've made myself miserable coz of him. This is just a side of my life. My love life if I should say?? I do enjoy the other aspects of my life. I mean if I'm not, I'll not be here reading ... Lady Nyx
I was hoping there would be another chapter where she gets more mature and he returns and then they hook up. But I really rather can't stand her...better dark-haired guy find a nicer girl.
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This gonna be long but I wanted to get it off my chest a bit coz I never share this to anyone. Not to my family or my besties. I cant think of a reason why I dont want to share it with anyone in my life. I just think that I dont want to. When we were 15 yo, this boy was gonna go to different high school and I suddenly felt like its gonna be very lonely coz we were quite close. He plays sport too. I like listening to him talking especially when he told me about his soccer matches. Plus he's funny too. So when we started high school, we still in contact with each other regularly. Of course we didnt meet since its quite a distance. Quite later, I felt like something lost. It was like an incomplete life or something. I can't explain it well. But I know it has something to do with him. When I realized the feelings I have for him, I wanted to confess but it took me few months to gather the courage to do so coz I was afraid I'm gonna lose what I have with him during that time. Even so, I determined to take a step ahead. So when we were chatting as usual, using mobile phone of course, I confessed to him. He didn't reply. I thought maybe he was shocked or surprised and he wanted to calm himself first before replying to me. I can't sleep coz I felt anxious. But the reply didn't come even the next morning. And the next two mornings. So I messaged him again but I was given the silence again. The silence continued. I started my college education last year. Far from my city. And this year, I finally saw him. In the same college as mine. He walked from the opposite direction and our eyes met. I know he recognized me coz he looked kinda shocked. He didn't put a single smile and just walked past me. After almost 5 years, I finally got the concrete answer. Tho it was the same silence, but his action was clear enough. I don't know if I waited for him these past 5 years but I didn't dated anyone for the whole time. There some times someone approached me during the past 5 years but I don't know. It just seems like it won't work out. And for him, I'm sure I gonna see him around again in the future. Maybe tomorrow. Who knows. Tho I got my reply, I still have lots of questions in my head. Was he shocked by my confession?? Is he mad?? Does he hates me because of it?? Why the silence?? Can't he give me a proper reply?? Not sure if I ever regret confessing but I definitely sure I lost something. He was one of a very few boys that I got along with. So my biggest question now 'was it my fault that things turn out this way??' I'm actually holding back my tears typing this.
I'm kinda glad there's not many people around here. I wanted to get it off but I also kinda don't want others to know.
I think u should get over him and it's not ur fault. He is just confused that his best friend fell in love with him unexpected so it was a pretty shocking for him and he don't know what to say to u, so he is running away from reality. I would say go talk to him and ask him his answer and tell him that "If u hate my confession! Fine but don't treat me like i'm some kind of a ghost, it's really painful for me, I don't wanna lose my best friend" and say it with teary eyes and he will properly tell u his answer and it's possible u can be friends again.
Thank you very much for your reply. I did think of talking to him now but I can't seem to find the courage that I used to have back when I confessed. And even if we are to be friends again, I think most probably things will be different. Not that I don't want to get over him but somehow I feel that things just don't go well with me. I wonder if I take these things too seriously.
Dude!! Be strong and find the courage to say it, I was gonna say that write a letter to him but I was thinking it would be creepy, so it's better to say it straight. Well if it was me I wouldn't give a damn and enjoy my life with my new friends and have a bf and show him i'm doing great without u instead of stressing myself for him. If he ignores u! U also do it. He is just enjoying his life and ur just being miserable. So my advice is talk to him or not it's ur choice but please get over him.
I'm not gonna say that I've made myself miserable coz of him. This is just a side of my life. My love life if I should say?? I do enjoy the other aspects of my life. I mean if I'm not, I'll not be here reading all the manga. And I hang out with my friends too. It is just that one part that I do not enjoy.
Good for u(๑•ㅂ•)و✧
ACK, Shinobu is horrible. So glad Daichi didn't end up with that selfish dodo.
Agreed she's fricking horrible and toxic. Also, why is the extra chapter all about her?? I fukken dont want or dont need to read it (︶︿︶)＝凸
it would've been so much better if the guy with the black hair stayed and him and shinobu dated
I was hoping there would be another chapter where she gets more mature and he returns and then they hook up. But I really rather can't stand her...better dark-haired guy find a nicer girl.
Just wow...
i have read this so many times and I never get sick of it ! plus I love the author XD