Comrade Mommy's manga / #Couldn't Finish(1)

So I started this on myreadingmanga awhile ago but quit b/c 1st I'm thrown off by a castrated male feeling sexual pleasure-not likely- but then 2nd and most importantly the horrific shota rape-I can't read it-I'm fucking unable to tolerate about this kind of thing sine I became a mom-when I was pregnant I was miserable, on bed rest and filled my time watching Law & Order SVU marathons but after giving birth I just couldn't watch it anymore-it made me distraught to see kids hurt-add that my OCD that was mostly in remission came back with a vengeance I ended up stuck in repetive intrusive thought hell whenever exposed to any story containing abuse of a kid-(who new that besides post pardem depression there's also post pardem OCD & post pardem anxiety-those last two I got in spades-I literally became so terrified of someone hurting my baby in any way I started sleeping with a knife in my bedside drawer-i was scared to go to close to the window in case I tripped-what a terrifying yet euphoric time-the oxytocin hormone is no fucking joke-I'm less nuts now but I've retained a certain freak out factory whn it comes to this stuff-maybe it's repressed shut from being a victim of child abuse but I am always beyond horrified & sickened when exposed to anything resembling child abuse-