Tai's manga / #age gap(7)

i read this like 10+ years ago. i was so into it. but the drama lied! in the manga all the guys are hideous except shin. in the drama u get tons of cute boys. the DECEPTION. (also no romance in the drama, lame.)

i read this on renta a while back before it was posted here. they had a free chpt event. and i read the first chpt and was like (i gotta see where this wild shit goes next) and indeed it was worth it. esp since it was only 100p a chpt for renting (sadly not all comcis on the site have a rental option). ANYway, i liked it alot but there's...alot of caveats. the second to last chpt has an unnecessary scene of sexual assault (that is not from the older lover in this story thankfully, the actual couple is very sweet...if u ignore the age gap lol) and altho the loving sex that ensues after the younger guy is rescued by his childhood hero is a great sight to behold, i was still left wondering if that had been necessary. im complaining when i actually had alot of fun reading this. and it is imo pretty damn sexy. specifically the older guy. its weird to call someone whose only 38 an "older" person like...that's not even middle age yet BUT I digress, the only real critique i have is actually the age gap. which is to say im fine with there being one but desperately wish the lead guy aka the bottom aka the blonde wannabe badboy rich kid (he's SUCH a poseur but he's also totally harmless so its genuinely cute) was just a bit older. like if he was 24, everything woulda held up alot better for me and 14 years is still a noteworthy age gap. anyway, to the credit of the writer tho the dynamic and the relationship doesnt feel icky or predatory the way it plays out. first of all the kid is VERY aggressive about what he wants, who he wants and why he wants it. and moreover he's amazingly proud of being his childhood hero's bottom bitch? like he's so willing and happy to identify himself with that role that its imo refreshing and kinda transgressive? like he wants to be a macho badboy yankee like his love interest aka personal superman but he's also dead set on getting fucked by him and being his "girl". i wonder if the term he used in japanese was a bit less gendered but who knows. i know some people wont like that phrasing but i was fine with it! u can be a badass bottom! (he's not a badass ofc despite his best efforts lol but the point is he doesnt think his being a bottom disqualifies him from reaching his goals). anyway the ex delinquent himself is genuinely a really cool and fairly mature guy. he's bisexual and a hardworker and he dgaf. he isnt really anyone special in his adult life beyond being very sexy (if u ask me lol) but this kid thinks he hangs the moon and its honestly hard not to find it adorable and altho the guy (rightfully) ignores his advances at first he eventually caves to the cuties affections cause it'd be kinda hard not to. Also he genuinely admires the boy's own abilities as much as his pure hearted devotion (altho he acts ridiculous the boy is no idiot and is also pretty good with technology, a fact that both highlights their age gap and also their gap in class, it would be interesting to explore the class gap tbh what with the older guy clearly coming from a working class background while the young one is a bonafide rich boy). But still...he's as old as the younger guy's MOM and he almost dated her when they were in highschool...yikes! lol. ALSO he did know and meet his lover when he was just a tiny bb. altho they didnt meet for a long time after...the point is he DID know him originally as a tiny child and not as a horny 20 yr old so...IF any of the above i just mentioned didnt horrify you then perhaps u too will enjoy this comic and those steamy sex scenes!

short, sweet, consensual lol. thats always refreshing? im not a total hater of dubcon but the way it plays out in TL is always so banal and leaves a sour taste in my mouth or worst of all...is BORING. the worst thing erotica can be is boring imo. anyway this wasnt super memorable or great but it was enjoyable enough and the guy was a more classic tsundere type. ie not a raging dbag or cold but rather taciturn, reserved, quiet and not esp effusive with his affections however he is also clearly in love with the girl and doesnt constantly demean her or play hot n cold with her. he's pretty straightforward and a good boyfriend. there is a bit of an age gap (a small one). but as its a factor that he kinda played an older brother role to her for most of her life i figure its worth mentioning? anyway this does have sex scenes! but its overall pretty wholesome i'd say. (tho the guy is the typical baby faced super thin TL manga type of youth and that doesnt rly do it for me if i'm honest lol)

genuinely thoughtful and interesting. despite being about an erotica writer, there is only rly one proper sex scene? but its def pretty Adult throughout. Indigo no Kibun, the prequel aka backstory of the main guy here and his long time friend in this story, is more interesting (and sexy) than this one is but both are good and i recommend both. (i havent read it in full in english yet, just partially in english and then raws and then listening to the BLCD because my comprehension of spoken japanese vs written is like...continents apart lol). but yeah this story i read entirely translated thankfully so i can say with confidence that its a worthwhile but melancholic somewhat bittersweet read. (more sweet than bitter thankfully)

I'm not one for age gap romances with an older guy usually BUT when i do read them THIS is the kind of older guy im fine rooting for. they are a cute pair even if im like "sis i get it, he's foine and a good guy but....ur too young for dis. he looks good NOW sure but in 10 years you'll only be 30 and he'll be wrinkling up like shrink wrap". anyway im a bad person but this is a good manga and its worth a read