NYXIE's manga / #Fear of abandonment(2)

This manga was definitely one of the best yaoi I've read! The story, despite the sometimes excessively dramatic gesture was deep and the romance didn't feel rushed or forced at all. I really hated the kashiwa brothers-both of them!!!- & generally the characters were well made. I personally really liked the ending. The awkwardness that is felt when you think your relationship cannot be saved no matter how much you love each other was portrayed in a very natural manner. And the rape theme... Well, to be honest, I sometimes like tape themes in yaoi, since they're not exactly "rape" most of the time, but this was very serious- the rape scenes despite being not too graphic, made me sick to my stomach and I felt the true terror of such history for the victim. All in all, I really loved this manga very much. Already read it trice, & I will probably read it again any time I feel like I need some sweet drama:)

Uncharacteristicaly, I waited a long while for this to finish The story gets you hooked, but in the end, my evaluation took a nose dive compared to the beginning It’s just that...even though this was the best ending for me, I still can’t understand the uke...well, I’ve never been in an abusive relationship, so maybe I just don’t get it, but I always feel like in any abusive relationship, some of the fault actually lies with the abused party. This was a perfect example of that; I mean, even if he didn’t have the guts to tell Shogo the truth (that he loved him & that the intercourse with his ex was actually mostly rape) at that time, there was still no reason for h to stay with his abusive, shitty ex-bf!!! I think I should re-read this in a couple of years and see how my opinion would alter as I age~