This is the saddest BL i've ever read so far. Imagine giving you all up for the person you love, you keep waiting for him eventhough you knew he is toying with someone else. Worse is at the lowest time of you life, he's not there to be with you while you suffer from all the pains of having cancer.. i cannot! This literally broke my heart every single time. Shizhu is soo precious he didn't deserve to be taken for granted.
As for the doctor, I salute him for givi g himself to Shizhu though he knew he can never have his heart. Imagine the pain looking at someone you love suffer and waiting for his last breath and to make it worst, you are a well-known doctor for that illness.. how heartbreaking this is..
I actually thought the tables will turn and Shizhu will be healed at the last 10 chapters but hell! This is sooo cruel. I felt bad for the doctor and for Shizhu... ok.. fine! Also slightly just a little tiny bit felt bad for the bastard jerk who made Shizhu felt unloved and undeserving. He got what he deserved in the end. He didn't had a chance to see Shizhu at the very last moment of his life. That is the most punishment he could get.
10 years where I loved you the most