I Thot You Was a Toad's manga / #regret(2)

College classmates, Ozawa and Yasunao, befriend each other over a shared love of classical music, and soon that friendship turns sexual. But Ozawa has a tragedy in his past that consumes him with guilt, regrets and grief, and he won't allow his relationship with Yasunao to move forward. This is the story of how Yasunao slowly breaks through that wall, rendered in Asou Kai's lovely drawings.

Here is a sad tale about obsession and grief. If Natsuke could rewind the years back to high school when he rejected an ardent confession from Haruomi, the boy he led on, would he? Haruomi hasn't moved forward, instead numbing his pain in masochistic encounters with anonymous men, all strangers upon whom he projects Natsuke's face. When Haruomi uses the occasion of the marriage of a mutual friend to engage at long last in a similar sort of cold, painful sex with Natsuke, he is still unfulfilled. Natsuke remains obstinate and unmoved, even through a clumsy blackmail attempt. What will it take to break through this emotional stalemate?