fiffy's manga / #illness(1)

may 14, 2024 8.9/10 imma give this 5 stars 'cause the amount of emotions I've felt throughout my reading experience here. although at first, i had my doubts, like, how everything is moving fast in the first chapters. the leukemia, the revelation of the affair, the doctor's growing attraction to lewis.. man, no one even warned me it would be thrown right on our faces, when i could've readied myself so. look, i know adolph was such an asshole for being a cheater but, BUT, seeing the impact of lewis' loss on him that made him realize his mistakes and own up to it, has made me think that everyone deserves another chance. i know everyone's betting on the doctor, but here i am hoping for the original couple to give their relationship a second shot. and i hope, they'll even be stronger together. but, as i see it- I'm not sure if lewis no longer has feelings for adolph seeing his very last moment was him blurting what was clearly a memory of him and adolph in high school. man, this really sucks. i guess, his death was really destined to happen in no time. but wasn't actually what hurt me. it's the anguish and pain, the pathetic man adolph has become after losing the love is his life.. forever. he really wasnt given another chance. i also feel bad for the guy adolph cheated on lewis with. i forgot his name, but when i read his point of view, where he said he lost everything because he loved, has caused my heart to ache. although it still doesn't justify his wrongdoings, he's still a human. we all are. we make mistakes and hurt others to make ourselves happy. the doctor, he's such a greenflag. he took care and loved lewis with all his heart. and knowing that he said to himself that he won't be able to love again (somewhere along that line) has given me the impression that he genuinely loved lewis. the manhua was beautiful. idk how the author made the story beautiful despite some noticeable holes, but nonetheless, it was beautiful i honestly don't know why i sympathize with wenxi jiang, but maybe because it only shows how people can get. that's human for you. spiteful. but as we realize our mistakes, we have to change and move forward #RIPLewis #PetitionForGivingOurManASecondChance