Witchery's manga / #Suffer bus(30)

This is such a toxic trashcan fire but I can’t look away. The top is such an excruciating narcissistic asshole at every turn and poor Yan just constantly does his best but always gets hurt. Top who will not be named because he doesn’t deserve to be ignores Yan for years while sleeping with other people, pushes unnecessary medical procedures that harm Yan’s health solely to meet top’s preferences, keeps unnecessary secrets to “protect” Yan that lead to inevitable misunderstandings (which Yan get’s blamed for), gets insanely jealous when Yan even interacts with others despite the fact that the top has slept with dozens of other people during that period as well, has harmed Yan during a vulnerable period (was weak/injured because of something top did to him), and refuses to even listen to Yan when he tries to express or explain himself. This is so excruciating I want to tear my hair out. I wish the top would just die so he can be happy alone or with literally anyone else