Kore Wa Kitto Yume No Naka No Kiss
AWWWWWWW awwwwwhhh awwwwwwwwww.... what a really nice flow.. love it.. although I would love to read more chapters since it has ended I shall accept it. Love it.. just this artist thing .. I mean slowly knowing each other and ecoming mature basta like that like that
Seven Days
This is a masterpiece. How many times have I read this? I forgot already. This is that manga that I would never ever tire of reading. I love it to bits. The expression. The tension. Just. Perfecto! *muah* Dear future self please write the date don't be me of yesterday lol. May 4, 2020 11:31AM I love this so much. Just. I love it Dude I reread it again this so cute Aug 7,2020 January 2, 2021 11:37pm Mannn my phone turned off and I even wrote a huge ass essay. Hmph. Anyway, Ishould read this every year. I don't think I read this 2022 but I love rhis so much back in college. Like a cinnamon sniff (after smelling perfume) to my smut addiction. I've always wonder if I'll be loved like this. If I'll be someone's special person. I guess Valentines day 2023 making me feel things. But, life update, I did cry a bucket before reading this. I've finally decided to let go of my one sided love. I've been in love with that person for almost 3 years. Most of it I spent in denial lol. It was not like I wanted something to happen. I just accidentally fell in love. We were bestfriends not anymore. Still friends tho. But now that person has someone by their side. I made a way to reconnect today tho but yeah... to no avail. And I thought to myself I just can't keep getting hurt right? I have to stop these tears that brings me no closer to that person. So, one last cry? That person at one point became my world. I guess, that's weird. I couldn't help it honestly. I'm so love deprived that even a little kindness could make me head over heels for someone. I'm so sad. Haha. But, it's alright. I'll be okay.
Totsugimasen Kara!
AHHHHHHH this is sooooo cuteee.
The Keystone Romantic Combination
Decembee 25, 2019 This, future me, is seriously a gift for Christmas who would have thought I'll find a treasure today? This day that has no happiness. No excitement. Nothing. It's supposed to be a great event but we are not feeling the Christmas vibe but I found this and all that emptiness is slowly easing away. Oh good Lord, where can I find more like this? This is just too wholesome. Amma die amma die. Future self thank the me of today. Cause somehow I made Christmas a lot bearable. May 9, 2020 I've continudd reading and we're now in chapter 38 and wow I really loved this. I wonder what will Hyun's reaction be. I sure do hope he will still be happy af. And not think that Youngjoon is just saying it for like the timebeing. But, ya know, what's harder for me to think. The anger, the frustration and like just everything seems wrong. You just did everything you could but it is really no use. Like, it's not even you but the universe is preventing you from achieving something like its telling you and giving you multiple reasons that it is really not for you. Bit move forward, Youngjoon. Rise above all adversities. And hold on. And I believe you can even change fate itself May 14 2022 I can't believe it took me this long to finish this lol. That was a really great story. 10/10. Would def read again someday. Uhm well am okay now with the election. I think I'll turn off social media and just hope for the best for our country. It's gotten to me so very heavily that I did nothing but suck information from all angles about it. Anyway, I'm okay now. This my 3rd day being alone and the house is as it is. And I need to feel my dogs because I also didn't eat. Okay. See ya self we good now. Thank you. 12:57pm
Daehyun Laundry~ We wash everything~
Hmm this was unexpectedly good. Tell you what.. it's consensual rape. Uhm, does that exist in the world of bdsm uhm probably lol. I don't even know. But it is what it is, he wanted to be fucked by force and he wamted to fuck him. And it works for them. Who am I to judge .. it's such a small town. Dicks that huge are hard to come by. Anyway however, they started off with the wrong foot but it honestly got better. Seme treated Uke like a princess. And it's weird for me that I wasn't like .. when will it be ny turn (probably because it wasn't obsessive and possessive. Me like a little bit of toxicity heh) it's a healthy kind of relationship that they built. It was full of reassurance and love that the uke didn't need to beg for. Sanaol. Anyway, it's 4:14am and there's like huge emotional life update I'm gonna spew so sit back self .. or just go.. honestly in the future I hope we're not facing the same problem ... So yeah I'm just gonna ramble... Suddenly I don't have thoughts anymore lol. I was reading another manga earlier. I forgot to write a review for that.. that was where I was gonna put this life update but yeah.. anyway, I guess there's no coming back from this fall out. Have I mentioned I'm in a tricky friendship. I probably haven't .. but yeah. There's no coming back from this.. I probably say that too much in my journal and everything will be fine with me again if that person starts to text me back like a fucking month just didn't pass ..of us not talking lol. I am seeing clearer now. I've always veiwed that person with a rose colored glasses. That person is someone I really want. I've tried manifesting that person. Cried for that person like .. probably a whole gallon or more worth of tears. But, we're just friends not even in a mutual understanding but legit friends .. that's how we say it. But I know that person liked me before (not sure now) and I have a feeling that person also knows I like them, too.. and so, we've been friends for years but lately it really feels like it will come to an end. I could put in the effort. I probably could keep it alive. But, that'd be too desperate and I could counter it by saying would you rather be labeled as desperate and keep the friendship or lose that person forever. But, self.. you understand. Or not.. in the future we might not remember this but that person. We've already given up. Hmm how do I say.. What are we even trying to work so hard for? The friendship... but that person already showed us multiple multiple times that they'd choose anyone other than us. So what exactly are you trying so hard for? Please don't be desperate. Also, imagine if we did all that.. and we did before, too.. and the frienship still sinks. You must know self, even if it hurts, but they have to want it to continue for it to really continue. You crying over it. Sending stuff that reminds you of them. Just trying out a bunch of stuff just doesn't help, so please. Just get the hint haha. It's like I'm two different people cause I know this. I have my rational mind but my delulu mind just come out just as strong.. not even.. it's even stronger. So self, just take a hint and just be available whenever you are needed. Not at all times. Live your life. The way they live theirs, not even bothered by a single thought of you. Don't reach out (and we almost did) don't try. Please. Please. They'll come to you, okay? Yo'r enot someone significant. You're not special so there's really no time for you in their schedule. You're just some "responsibility" now. They'll check on you cause they're a good person like that. Then disappear. And you shouldn't hope anymore every single time, okay? It's our fault. We let our imagination run wild and thought there was something there. But, there's really none. Oh.. I'm suprisingly okay. Normally, I would start crying. I guess, I've gone through this for so long that I am so over it now. I guess, time does heal. OR after all that I'm sure we've learn that lesson. Cause time didn't just pass. Anyway, that person choose this. And we also, choose this. So, pack it up. Hmm I guess, I really am okay now. I read my last years twitter posts the other day. And I was insane. Clingy. Desperate. Honestly, it was all good. I guess, it's nice to feel. Nowadays, I don't feel so strongly anymore. And it's been really peaceful. My anxiety.. with that person.. horrible. I guess, even as friends we don't suit each other's love language. And I always read somewhere you need to teach people how to love you. But, I disagree on some degree. It's true but it's also not 100%. Because I already tried teaching. But, they won't do it if you're no that special to them. That's the honest truth. It's kinda sad because you only teach people how to love you if they're special to you.. cause you really want to stay and you want to be okay..but as your words go on deaf ears you .. not pretty.. not pretty. 100% does not recommend getting hurt like that. Do yourself better and love yourself instead of begging. I guess, I learned quite a bit. Idrk what I wanna say going forward. But, I am okay with everything now. I've started not expecting from other people. Not contacting them. Not really caring anymore. I always see some quotes that don't let a failed relationship harden your heart. Meh, you know what.. let people be .. change is a good thing. So, you say be a pushover all their life? I kinda hate those quotes that makes evil of those people that's been hurt. Drives me mad. Can't people be angry at the things done to them.. ugh..I bet people like that.. are those who say pray to God and you will be all right. Deadass. It's you who will make yourself feel alright. Not some quote on the bible saying you need to be good to your enemy. Fuck that. Don't be dumb and burn yourself twice. Ugh self, we still have beef with religion. Ugh. Gets me heated everytime. Not even my grandmother can make me sweeten my words towards it. But, anyway, that's just my own personal beef. People can believe it . I even celebrate Christmas and stuff but don't give me those types of advice I will rain hellfire on you. HAHA. Chill. So yeah. Tf we went from love problems to Christianity. Anyway, bye. Be well self, just uninstall honestly. Don't be guilty over it. You have that person a bunch of time. Just uninstall. Better for our mental health.
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