Isemoir's manga / #Twisted(11)

The long term effects of being molested and a subconscious tendency to romatasize the event and think that the person who did it actually loved you when in reality they were just a victim of the ruthless cycle that is sexual trauma as a child. Even so your own head says that they love you and thay they are the only person that ever did so your can't help but believe that even if it hurts how you develop relationships what they did is justified due to a non-existent connection between. In fact, it shouldn't even do much damage. It's just sex. Everyone has sex. You just had it earlier than everyone else because you were strong. You could handle it at 6. You handled it. It didn't damage you. You are strong. You are not scared. Phrases that repeat like a wound up toy, circulating in your thoughts to make yourself feel less insecure and ashamed. Why would you? Sex was a natural process and you were strong. And I think I just projected my own experience. Whooops

"Ngl it's quite hot" -My horny teenage brain This whole series feels like twisted for the sake of being twisted, and there is no real enjoyment from that because anyone can come up with a twisted scenario. Still once your start it's hard to stop. The trap has already been set into motion, you've fallen for the bait of naked anime tiddies and now you're hooked with the idea that the next arc will be worse. It is worse. It's not watching your sister brutally smash your father's head worse, it's disappointing worse. Then you realise, it doesn't matter that the plot is getting worse, because you weren't reading for plot anymore. You continued reading to see several brutal mass murders because this made it look Hot. As. Fuck. Those sweet mass muders, didn't require plot but blood, brutality and a boner. Finally it hits you. This is porn.

Weird

Ok but the horror part of this is realising that if this was real you'd be dead in an instant.