Sleeps In Sunbeams's manga / #Violence(10)

A lifetime of extreme abuse seems to have created a total masochist who falls under the control of a sadistic, dark master.

Falling in love in an abusive relationship is a big no for me. Fair enough if you love pain, but that needs to be consensual and with a partner in control. Fair enough to have an obsessed partner dominate you in bed. But hitting because of a sleep uttered name is a nasty, flashing warning and not hot. Nothing sexy or erotic about domestic violence.

️Note: Not as tagged (not harem story or yaoi) This was a surprisingly enjoyable story. The comments don’t do it justice because it has a lot more depth to it than what you would expect from the beginning. The story starts out in the insular yet rather over the top Wild City, following main protagonist Jimmy (a werewolf accepted into mainstream society) who works at the majestic postal service. Yes..majestic. Just check that building out. The story has a rather surreal or fantasy feeling at first. There are over the top enemies, explosions, oddball directors of the postal service and an unusual emphasis on being the best delivery person and be promoted to elite. Tbh, the beginning felt a bit like a bad anime with lots of insane villains popping up all the time and potential romances for Jimmy crossing his path. But, then the story twisted in a big way and nothing and no one were what they seemed. It was like the epiphany moment in the Truman Show when you started to look at everything you know and realise you don’t know much at all. The latter part of the story is gory, violent, cruel and sad. And suddenly all those little things that bothered you made began to make sense. I liked the ending, and the final chapter was an epilogue style that offered a glimpse at life a few years down the track. That happy ending was needed after all the crap that happened through the story. As I mentioned, it was a surprisingly good story and I give it 4 stars, mostly because the beginning did drag on a bit and because some oddball categorised this as a harem and it was definitely not. More like a shounen-ai if anything and nothing remotely explicit or harem like occurring.

Tragedy and psychological A sad, twisted and dark story that will break your heart. There is no happy ending, but there is some peace and a tiny sliver of hope you can find.

Contrary to many recent commenters, I enjoyed this story very much and did not see the FL as being weak or the MC as not having genuine feelings. Ellzay Thyase starts out as the reincarnated form of a young Korean girl who was drawn to the tragic destiny of the boy who yearned for love but surrendered to darkness, Azef Randall, from the novel ‘The Crest of God’. ‘Zay’ and ‘Asef’ are more closely tied together than you would think at first. For Zay, there is a desperation to spare the much abused Asef the loneliness and abuse of his existence that always corrupts his very soul and makes him the doomed villain. She seems so delicate because she has a gentle heart and cries for the villains fate. But given the severity and amount of abuse and neglect suffered by Asef over his life, and the joy that many seemed to take in being cruel to him, I think a strong (in the way of leaping in and taking charge) FL could not appeal. Consider how much of the violence done unto him was perpetrated by a woman who was meant to care for him. He needed a seemingly vulnerable and delicate woman who saw the good in him to stir any remnants of protective feelings he may have had. Someone who loved him for all he could and should have been, who saw through his lies and understood him anyway. The more you read the story and understand how deep their ties to each other are, the more you realise how strong the FL is. Always willing to sacrifice herself to ensure his happiness. The sad part though, is that you realise without Zay being in his life, Asef was unable to find happiness. He stays bound by the demons of his childhood. I won’t add any more spoilers to show why these two are so special together, or why you can trust Asef to treasure Zay before himself, but if you see him through her eyes as the story unfolds and understand that she will always do anything to try save him from loneliness, you will begin to understand the strength of her sacrifice and the depth of their love for each other.

Rival yakuza clans on the brink of war. Two second in command leaders in conflict and in bed with each other but what is the truth? This is an awesome story that focuses on Fuyushi Kurosawa, of the Kuroda clan and Tomoya Nishida, of the Kirigaya clan. The inner tussle for power, the external violence between the groups, and the chemistry between these two men make this a must read for anyone who likes their Yaoi with a little danger. Beautiful art too, and uncensored. What more could we ask for?

Once high school best friends, Shino and Kazuto now work as detectives for the island country Sakura. Shino works in the city branch, and much to his annoyance, Kazuto works the regional office. A new case has them working together, much to Shino’s dismay and Kazuto’s delight. You see, Kazuto is crazily obsessed with Shino. The yandere detective is dangerous to any who would stand in his way with Shino, and even to some degree, towards Shino himself. Enjoy this story with full understanding that this possessive and obsessed lover would kill anyone who tried to take Shino away from him. And Shino? He just can’t quite push Kazuto away..

An extremely dark and disturbing story but it sweeps you in with the overwhelming obsession that is between these 2 twisted men. Which one is more insane? Crime boss’s son and rising gangster in his own right, Kanghyun Seo first noticed the beautiful son of a famous chef, Lee Dojun when he was in his sophomore year. When they got separated Kanghyun kept looking for his senpai even in his random sexual encounters. And when he found Dojun brutally murdering a man in the back alley streets, he couldn’t have been more delighted. The story then follows their budding relationship and you can’t help but find yourself wishing these highly emotionally disturbed men sone happiness together. Spoiler alert: It’s not too hard to realise pretty early that the author will not be giving our crazy pair the happiness you wish for. It’s much easier to go the tragic route and sure enough the things you anticipate from the characters you suspect unfolds. It’s promises kept and a warm reunion in a better place that bring out the heart hurting bittersweet tears for our dark heroes of the story. I would have given 5 stars if the author made things work for them, I have read stories where MCs like this make their own place in the world. But really, it was still a great story of perfectly imperfect men.

CW: Violence, dub con, abuse, degradation This was a surprisingly good story. Misaki and Haru’s story spans roughly 8 years and shows a lot of growth in both the characters and (imo) the mangaka’s approach to and understanding of, a relationship with someone who is strongly masochistic. When we first meet the MCs Misaki was just discovering his affinity for pain, how he was able to make it become intense pleasure and the unhealthy ways he fulfilled this need. Haru was not a sadist so much as inherently short fused and reactively violent. Their relationship began with violence because giving and receiving it met different needs in each other but it was a very unhealthy relationship. Over time, it evolved and changed into something that suited them. For Haru, having someone who was in his corner seemed to bring out his “lovey dovey” side and he became aware that he didn’t want to hurt the one he cared for, but the one he cared for needed that. And, tbh, at times Haru did too. I really liked that each looked into what real S&M was about, healthier ways to satisfy those deep needs and seemed to really prioritise their partners needs. I also liked the hints that other random Ms out there seemed to instinctively recognise the S in Haru. He had a strong presence as he matured. They weren’t perfect (not even close lol) but they grew into an unexpectedly stable pair and they went from mutually toxic to a loving pair.

Completed Story CW: Pedophilia, rape, child abuse, murder (not done by either MC to the other) Yuen was abandoned by his parents and taken to an orphanage. His only support was his roommate, 16yo Yan, who became like a kind and protective older brother. Yan nii-chan also cherished Yuen like his younger brother, but one night something happened that changed everything. 10 years later the Yakuza, Aoyagi turned up at the orphanage to take over handling of the remnants of the nearly derelict place known for human trafficking. There he met the last remaining teacher Yuen and his two charges. This story is their relationship and it was beautifully drawn and remarkably sweet, especially given the many dark underlying themes. Sexy, uncensored hot scenes mixed with caring and warm feelings; such a wonderful mix!