melon's manga / #Conflicting(1)

I couldn't keep reading it... I'm crying way too much!!!!!! Chp 41!!!! I just can't I was secretly rooting for Jihyun but...! I can't. Not at the moment. I think they could've gotta together again like in the future maybe but... I think I agree with Chiwoo, I wouldn't be able to forgive him, but even with that I thought they could be together still... Like the I can't forgive you so make up for it with the rest of your life, stay with me!! That kinda declaration!! But it wasn't so and I couldn't keep reading... Really... I think Jihyun and Kyujin are the same. It just Jihyun was struggling with it for 6 whole long years, while Kyujin only a few months... I really believe that if the times were switched, Kyujin would've done the same too. And I wonder... It feels as though Chiwoo is using Kyujin as a substitute. Using him to undo his regret. Redo his past. I think it's projection... I think if only Chiwoo and Jihyun had communicated better they could've ended together. I so desperately wanted together. But it was just so painful at this point. I really wish somewhere in another parallel universe they are together. I don't think Kyujin deserves to be with Chiwoo. I think he was just lucky. And Kyujin had friends and people he could rely on... Jihyun was all alone. He... it seemed as tho this was the first person he ever cared for. The first ever love. He was never loved properly so he just didn't know how to love... He didn't know what to do. He was scared and desperate. I couldn't hate him at all. I guess that was the only thing a bit different about Kyujin and Jihyun... Kyujin was just a lil less of a coward than Jihyun...