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BROOOOOOOO ITS ACTUALLY SOOOOO GOOD!! LIKE... CHILLS. CHILLS. IM GETTING CHILLS READING THIS. IM CRYING. BRO I JUST SKIMMED TIL CHSPTER 5 BUT ITS SOOO GOOD. CHAPTER 5, IM CRYING. The darkness, light, loneliness, longing, frustration, confusion, [falling in] love... everything... this is turning out to be so beautiful. Painfully beautiful and heart crumbling. I really really REALLY like this. I find it lovely, sweetly nostalgic, and relatable. It's a sad-happy feeling. Definitely take ur time and read this. And the art... ITS SO PRETTY!!! Especially I'm the first few chapters, I found his first time acting tryout for the club sooooo beautiful!!!!!!!!! It's was "Wow." In credibly beautiful!!!!! I ship them both!!!!!! Ugh!!!!!! I like him with Yashiro but he's gonna fall for Keito. I get the feeling Yashiro does likes him but it's not the same at the same time??? Like he doesn't want that, he grew to have feelings but it's not like that too. Like he cares but it's not like that. He wants him but it's not like that. I think he wants to be the light in the darkness Yashiro is always writing in his stories but... I think he realizes he's not. That he can't be. That he's not enough. That he isn't that light. And I think Yashiro does like him buy he can't overcome his loneliness, that darkness, that he wants him to be that light but he isn't. And Yashiro is just so completely consumed and enveloped in that darkness and loneliness that he may have already given up or not think he's enough. Or he can't move beyond it.. Or idk. I don't know... But if I was yashiro, I think I would somehow have become unconsciously comfortable in that darkness, in that loneliness. I think I would become to reliant on that. I would be afraid, too focus, of/on the thought of what if this is what makes my works amazing, this darkness, this loneliness. I think I would miss it. I think I'll be afraid to lose it. All this while feelings at the same time I want to escape the darkness and this loneliness. To feel lonely that you're no longer lonely is a comfusingly strange feeling I feel like Uashiro wants him but not want him at the same time..... Keito is moving forward lil by lil, its feels like he not too engulfed by that darkness and loneliness. Like he still hasn't realized. Still has some strength/hope/light/will. I think it's too late for Yashiro and him, there's just probably too much emptiness and it's been too long. I think Keito has a better chance. But I'm more team Yashiro. I want them all to be enveloped be light and warmth and happiness. I really want them to be happy. And loved.