melon's manga / #Lovely(2)

I'm crying. I'm crying. I'm crying. This hurts so much. This makes me so sad. I wanted them together. I ... "Its too late... Its already too late" ... This broke my heart. My heart was squeezing thru this entirely... Just why couldn't they be together! WHY!?!! Just... why Why does it always happen... even when you love each other sooo much... why can't they be together. Why!?! Sometimes when I remember them and the never changing heartwrenching fact that I'm not with them comes again... I'd think "why do we have to love people we can't be with" "why can't we always be together... why can't time freeze..." "why is life so cruel" "I never wanted to wake up from that dream..." If it's this painful. If it's only gonna end in heartbreak. If... "Why do we love" I would think this all the time. And my emotions would sway from unbearable sadness to bittersweet joy. It would make me feel oh so hopeless and with so many regrets yet extremely grateful. Its soo contradicting. Tho I sometimes wonder why and hate it, I would alway take it back... I am extremely grateful to have loved. To be able to have loved them, I dont regret any of it at all. All of it, good and bad, happy, painful, heartbreaking... everthing, every moment, feeling... all of it is mine. Preciously all mine. "'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." (-Alfred Lord Tennyson) To understand this is extremely painful and wonderful at the same time. Definitely reread this one! Itll keep breaking your heart but reread it. It's sad kind of good. I want to buy the hard copy in real life.

This was lovely. They were lovely. It was sweet and nice. It was refreshing..I liked it