eishin's manga / #shitty cheating piece of crap lover(1)

This is just so sad, but either way I honestly can accept that Lewis died in the end. I just hope that afterwards, Ivan was able to find happiness (not necessarily him finding a new love but just him being happy with his life y'know?) because I know Lewis would want that too. Up until his last breath, the guy was thinking about his happy days with that piece of crap, their time during their school days where everything was simple and they were happy. It's so heartbreaking to see because Lewis really loved him... but this stupid seme wasted such a one of a kind partner that loved him with all his heart. Lewis sacrificed so much, even to the point that he disobeyed his parents only to experience this in the end. I'm glad that Ivan took good care of him 'til the last of his days, and he died a peaceful death, finally free from all the load he's been carrying the past few years. Honestly, I think this story is a masterpiece even if it hurts so much. I like to console myself by thinking that in an alternate universe, Lewis decided to follow his dreams and decided to continue to Med School where he'd eventually meet Ivan (also studying to be a doctor). I'm sure Ivan would've taken care of him so well, like he could've gotten a dog earlier (Tommy) since he loves animals so much. Ivan wouldn't make Lewis adjust and compromise for him, instead, he would probably spoil him and give him all the love he deserves. In another life where Lewis ended up with Ivan instead and there is no Adolph in the picture. They'd live happily 'til their hair turns gray and old T^T P.S. Ngl that letter at the end hurts a lot too, it's good that he recognizes the wrong that he did and it's kind of pitiful that he can't accept Lewis' death, however, even if it seems cruel I think he deserves it for all that pain he caused Lewis when all the guy has done for him was to love him unconditionally to the point that he was willing to endure the pain. I'd say if Lewis never got sick he'd probably stayed by that jerks side for a couple more years :<<