ayirip's manga / #mixed feelings(6)

Epic story between 2 guys. I would call it a love story for Jun and a lust story for Tatsuya. If you can get pass the cheating part and a dick uke, this story would be a good read to you, definitely not to me. The uke pissed me off from the beginning to end, how can a cheater be the one who played hard to get? Wtf? The mangaka did a great job to irritate me. Maybe the name "Complex" came from inferiority complex? Tatsuya sure got that complex there. He messed everything up, and made things complicate. [Spoiler alert] I feel sorry for the Junichi, he only has Tatsuya. Why? Did the mangaka hate him that much? He's the most pethetic character in the story, I really like him. He even died later and had to be alone. Meanwhile Tatsuya, saying he loves him and he's the only one, was just sleeping with someone else. After that Jun still got cheated on, he had to leave everything behind, and he had to take the grudge from Takako, the bitch who Tatsuya cheated with and got pregnant, also he had to be the one to mend the relationship, but he was then treated as a stranger. I cried for Jun over and over. Tatsu is a coward selfish lying cheating bastard! I wished Jun's first time wasn't with him and find happiness with someone else. He's super disgusting. Jun turned gay because of him...my god I'm super mad. The mangaka took the easy way out with the loose bitch, Takako, homewrecker who, was then depicted as a self-sacrifice loving woman and Tatsuya's most beloved in the process, dying to clear the way (what a cliche!) in order for the MC to get back together. That was so predictable! It's either divorce or death. Death would extend the chapter of the manga and would be prettier ending for a fake lesbian character, so I guess that's why it was death. Seriously, i'd rather Junichi met Tatsuya with a smile that he has moved on, not begging Tatsuya to let him come back. I mean wthf? Even though Jun was fickle at the beginning, cause he's not gay, but he had never cheated. I'm so disappointed they're back together. Is there no one better for Junichi? Well, at least he looks happy in the end and in the photobook. That's all I like about the story. (From vol. 4 page 140 onwards was the best! Before that was Ken's story, he's a dick like his dad, why do I have to read about him? Guess cause it's more chapters for the mangaka) This is the comment that reflects my feeling about this manga the most by mtmt1311 on mangaupdate: "I dont understand why this has such amazing reviews. Its not realistic people. Spoilers throughout. Cheating doesnt make everything realistic. A GAY guy have sex with a LESBIAN bc they spent ONE night together and got pregnant. While a STRAIGHT guy got seduced by a woman when he was DRUNK, nothing happens. This is such exaggeration that far from reality. There are way too many things that make me want to drop the manga but I finished it just for the heck of the review. 1) The shoutacon rape was portrayed in a funny way that borderlines to ridiculous. Rape should never be taken lightly as this. 2) So Jun fought to hard to protest the slut's virginity just for him to give it away in high school? Just because u dont have the one u love, u have sex with random people, even though u still have a long way ahead of u? And he picked the worst guy to have sex with. Dumb and slutty. I laughed when he explains why hes still a virgin "It wasnt sex" Then what is. I bet prostitutes sleep around and tell people they're virgins since it wasnt sex. Spare me from nonsense. 3) The cheating incident is annoying but expected from the slut. Whats unrealistic is he leaving his so-called the-love-of-his-life so easily. I mean this guy still sticks to him after the wife died and he pushed him away like nothing? He even goes as far as saying "Ur a bother" Excuse me, ur the one who should be on ur knees to get him back to help u and the result of ur adultery. But no he is the one that begs for it. Lame and unfair. 4) And of course, pregnancy from one time, and instead of providing money, he gets married. Anyone will be happy about this? I bet not. But he is too dumb for this anyways. 5) And the author ran out of idea to solve it in a realistic way so she killed off her character. I mean if she didnt die or if Jun didnt disappear then what? Cheating? LOL  I read better story where a guy chose a woman instead of his male lover, for example Kyuuso wa Cheese no Yume o Miru and its sequels. If ur into guys with kids, a ONESHOT from Kiss Blue is more touching and believable than this. 6) Does he really love Jun? I doubt it, he chose the woman twice, not once. When he left him at the hotel, there is a high possibility that he will never meet Jun again but he ran to his wife anyways. The 5 year reunion, reunion after the wife's death and even moving in were anticlimactic, or more like, where is the love? But he didnt really love his wife, he has no problem sleeping with a dude before their wedding day. I got me wonder did he really love him or just his teenage phase? Coz obviously, Jun is more into him than he was into Jun in the later half of the story. He contacted Jun bc his wife told him and he lived him him also bc the wife told him. Does this guy have any backbone? 7) Tatsuya tried so hard and was happy for them to be in a relationship, then he wished to ended (he told his wife so) but have no intention of quitting his sexual relationship with Jun. Huh? The mangaka tried so hard to reason his actions but gives us something illogical instead. 8) Why do we have story about a son that I couldnt care less? I dont care if hes gay or not. I mean he is a insensitive, immature, two-timing and selfish douchebag just like his dad. Genetics I guess, like father, like son. Or is it from the mom? Couldnt tell since they're both jerks. 9) The so-called amazing end is very typical. It happened for every couple like one dies, imagining the other one gets him. Just not every manga does this. New York New York and A Night of a Thousand Dreams also have this but in a more touching way. 10) The art is bland bad and the narration is just so...poorly done that I almost fell asleep coz the feeling didnt sink in at all with all the ridiculous plot. I guess people will like it if they're into characters growing up together...."

Liked everything up to the ex-bf part. I mean why can't they make it clear whether they had sex or not or the Hasune used to be uke. It's pretty confusing with the earlier part where he said he needed to protect his ass chastity, but then he didn't say that they never gone all the way while they're dating. It's frustrated me cause if he let his ex do him why won't he let the Tokumaru do him too. Isn't it supposed to be reversible? I like it better when the role in the manga are flexible. I mean you can't deny that both of them are guys, right? Especially, the straight uke, of course, he would wanna top from time to time, right? Thought I notice the mangaka tends to keep the role as they are, meaning no seke in her other mangas too. By the way, his ex would be kinda seriously creepy since if they really did it when the seme was only 10 years old at the time, he would be a pedophile, right?

Make no sense at all, why would the uke falls in love with sush a egotistic seme?? Love at first sight? Is he a masochist? His icy gaze? This is frustrating.

Wtf! Is it because this is Shounen Ai, so we didn't see the graphic detail how Kentarou fucked Hikaru that's why the rating is so high? (Or would it make the rating higher if we did see their synchronized breathing? lol) Just get the fuck away from the pure and innocent Asakura! I shouldn't have read it, now I'm pissed! He rather fucks someone all day for money, which he doesn't need in the end I might add, than to be honest about his feelings with Asakura, pure love my ass! He even said he dosen't want to do AV anymore. Such a cute and adorable beginning, ruined! Kentarou, you whore! Traitor! Ughhhh!!! I'm not sure if it's only a yaoi mentality, the "I love you so/too much so/that I have to put my dick in someonelse's hole" shot, but that's just an excuse to cheat!

So that guy used to be his dad's bottom? Isn't that a bit icky? Feels incomplete and rushed.