kei_k's manga / #Attempted Gang Rape(5)

c18 13: - I realized that perhaps, in a twisted way, Karino actually cares for/is interested in Azusa because of what Atsumu said in a chapter (saying the caste can be a way to protect).. It's like, because of the dangerous group think that's happening, it's possible that even if Azusa remains a King, he'd be overwhelmed by the majority of those who are against him. In a way, it's better to for Karino to be the devil's advocate to protect Azusa from a MORE DANGEROUS future with their pervy and twisted classmates. The story is really f*cked up so I hope the author somehow execute it well in the next chapters. In a twisted way, I like Azusa and Karino to truly fall in love BUT only after they come to terms to their own selves and get ready for the consequences by atoning for their sins. When I first read this, I remember being utterly heartbroken and frustrated and mad to no end, but rereading it now (11/26/16), I can understand the situation better and see it in different perspectives. In other words, I'm not just being prejudiced with what I was taught to be morally accepted or righteous. I guess after reading lots of manga, I came to realize how ugly human nature can truly be despite growing up thinking otherwise. I, in no way, condone or support rape, violence or abuse, but I at least see it in a clearer perspective. It's really not just black and white. I wouldn't justify these things, but in this f*cked up world, people can only see the best after experiencing the worst.

The soul swapping part made me wonder. If I were to be in another person's body and meet my lover, would I allow him to touch the body I'm in, since I'm actually feeling whatever the body's experiencing? Or would I be insecure and feel like my lover's cheating on me because he's doing it to another person (even though it's me inside)? It's a complicated feeling, especially when you don't even know when or if you'll ever return to your own body... Though for this manga, I know they did get back. But if it were to happen (though highly unlikely) in real life, I wonder what I'd do.. Will I just keep on holding back or suck it up and just enjoy every passing moment, no matter which body I'm in? It's the inside/personality that matters most anyway, right? Hmmm...