kei_k's manga / #Heart-rending(10)

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Ch12... Ughhh it's heartbreaking... I just hope Naoto doesn't sleep with Kei while Taichi's like this.. // update: 10.26.16 Initially, I guess I was just rooting for Taichi to settle his issues, because they're mutually in love and natually, I wanted them together. However, I guess I haven't really considered Naoto's feelings before. I see it now (thanks to Colleen Hoover's It Ends with Us novel) how Naoto endured so much for Taichi and for the sake of saving their relationship. When he decided to give dating another try despite knowing they didn't do well in it in the past, he sincerely wanted to give it his all. He was insecure with being in the same sex relationship, meaning he'd have to give up hopes of providing Taichi a proper family in terms of marriage and children. He was hurting more, because he's the one who "receives." If Taichi were to choose a woman later, it'd be more painful because he'd feel less worthy because of their difference. I was especially disappointed, when they were talking about Taichi asking for time to think things carefully again, ALONE, because apparently, he didn't consider things even when he already proposed moving in together and being okay with anything as long as Nao's with him. Just imagine how much that hurts Naoto. But he was brave enough to ask him to talk about things together, since it's their relationship on the line. I can kind of understand why Taichi thought he should think about it alone first because perhaps he started questioning his own conviction. But honestly, I'm more on Nao's side. I liked how he really made an effort to make time for Taichi and wait for him so they could talk about it more thoroughly, but all Taichi's done was avoid him. Running away delays the inevitable, and a lot of times, make it worse. Now that Nisshi's taken action and confronted Taichi, he suddenly realized how he wasn't thinking about Naoto at all when he waivered? I'm pretty much upset with Taichi because of his past behavior, which Naoto accepted despite being hurt. They're not exactly broken up, but more of in a cool off relationship. Even if it's like that, though, I'd still not want Naoto to be kissed by another guy. He's in a very confused and unstable position at the moment, so I don't really want to ruin them more with this. If he were to at least consider someone else, it should be when he properly settled things with Taichi. I don't want to taint him as a cheater (though he doesn't have any intention). I wish Nisshi won't kiss Naoto at that moment though, because even if Nao didn't cheat, he'd surely feel guilty and it'd bother him from time to time. Nisshi may even be hated. So I say, Nisshi should really just stay put. Just show support and not expect anything yet. I don't exactly hate Nisshi, because he couldn't help that he fell for Nao, but I don't want him to be a bad guy just so Nao and Taichi could be happy. I want him to be happy too, especially after being betrayed by a past lover like that.

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Ch 1: I liked how the male lead treated the female lead who was about to go blind.. Ch2: It's quite disturbing to see the father kiss her on the lips since she's already a teenager. The love between the couple was not even elaborated. Not much feels. Ch3: I expected what happened from the start. It's just weird thaf it's mixed witg these supposedly "heartbreaking" one shots.

Aww. I first read this on... I don't remember when. Probably 2014? And now, I re-read it in August 8, 2016. The story still got me. It's truly memorable and close to my heart. I still wanted more than how it ended, but I guess that's left to our imagination. I loved this story because I was feeling for the characters. I felt bad for Haram when her love for Hanbit was not reciprocated (or at least, he didn't realize it then) but I was glad when she finally accepted her feelings for Gaon. Gaon. This guy made me tear up a lot. I was so sad for him but admired him at the same time. He's bright and he tried his best to make up for what he's lost. He created happy memories after being with Haram, and even when he knew it was pointless, he still continued to love Haram. When his memories came rushing back to him and he teared up? I was so hurt for him. He's a coward, but he's also brave. Anyway, I was glad that when he finally made his decision, he ended up being happy. Hanbit. Oh, this hot guy. He's the guy you'd admire from afar. The mysterious, cold but gentleman type. I loved and hated him at the same time. Really. Especially his strange quirk? Ugh. Okay. Nobody's perfect, so even a guy like him's supposed to have a weakness. But really? His weakness was so annoying. He couldn't stand it when girls cry in front of him, so he makes it up to them. That's why when girls confessed to him, when he rejected them and they started to cry, he just went along with them. Then, of course. A weakness like that was meant to be spoiled by a desperate girl. And that's how Sujin took advantage of him. I hated his high school self for giving in to her tears despite feeling strange about it. He knew she was his friend's girlfriend but he believed that they really broke up. Really? Even if that were the case, he shouldn't have accepted her that instant. And of course, Bakha was also to blame. He didn't listen to him until the end so he obliviously asked him to take care of her instead. So Hanbit may have felt more guilty for that so he forced himself to respond to Sujin's advances more. Hah... But I also hated how even when he finally became a college student, he has not changed. He even had that horrible experience in high school, and what? He still let his weakness get to him, subconsciously leading Yeojin (the singer) on when he saw her cry... And of course, when Haram confessed and cried (despite being warned by Yeojin) because she somehow wanted to take advantage of it, he actually said he'd do anything she wanted if she just stopped crying. I think anyone sane would feel unsatisfied. There are times when we want someone desperately that we'd think we'd do whatever it takes, as long as they become ours... even when they don't love us in return... But when it actually happens, we feel unsatisfied and become greedier. Anyway, this Hanbit was so frustrating as how he could calmly deal with Sujin like that. He already knew she wasn't normal, so why'd he expect that she'd back off after being told off so nicely? He didn't learn from his past mistake at all, being drugged and dragged to her home again. This is why I think guys who are nice to everyone, or too gentleman tend to become bothersome. Because they can't say "no" firmly or reject someone who clings desperately, they "sacrifice" themselves. They say they don't want to hurt that "someone" who asks desperately so it's better if they hurt themselves instead to satisfy the other. But what does that really do? It only hurts more people. I just wish guys like him would reject others firmly when they're really not interested. They may look bad or rude, but it's because of situations like this that I tend to think it's good enough if the guy treats me well, even if he treats other people indifferently or they think he's bad. Of course, that's selfish of me, but we can't please everybody anyway. No matter how good we try to become, there will always be someone who thinks otherwise. So instead of wasting time trying to reach out to a lot of people, I think it's wiser to just spend time creating more memories with people who actually appreciate you. Okay, I got carried away, but I think Hanbit's story was just so memorable that I can't help but want more of him. Like, how would his life go on? How will he meet "The One" and deal with his weakness? The main story was of course, around Gaon. And I really liked his story, too. He even made me tear up. I liked his personality, especially because even if he's nice to everyone, he knew how to draw the line. Like, when Yeojin asked him to stay with her instead, since it wouldn't really matter who he's with as long as he gets a companion, but he firmly refused and said he wanted to stay with Haram. This is what I want. Like, even when at that time, he still wasn't aware of his feelings for her, he remained faithful to her. This is really what I'm looking for in a guy. Of course, he's not perfect as well. He's a bit childish and it may seem like he only treated Haram well because she's the person who picked her up, but he's very thoughtful as well. Of course, it hurt when he suddenly ran off with his necklace, but I think everyone needs to deal with some things by themselves. That doesn't mean that they don't need us though. It's just part of discovering more about themselves. Anyway, this situation with Yeojin really made me like him more because you see, I actually felt a pang in my heart when he started to go out of his way to see and hear her sing in the park. Even when it was actually because he wanted to make Haram listen to her, I felt jealous that he's paying attention to another woman. He even agreed when she demanded to stay with her for a day. So I was so glad and relieved when he answered that way. Okay, about Haram. Well, she's violent towards Gaon, but it was intended for comedic purposes since Gaon was childish, so I didn't mind so much. And even when she's emotionally hurting him with that thing with Hanbit, I can't exactly blame her because it was easier for her to accept that she has feelings for Hanbit. And it's probably because she's aware that Gaon's a ghost so she didn't think of the possibility of falling for him since the beginning. Well, she's selfish too, but like Jiwon (Purple hyung) said, selfishness is part of human nature, so it can't be helped. I'm glad that she somehow controlled her selfishness though, and it's relatable how she demanded him not to even crush on someone while she hasn't moved on. I think every girl would wish that of their unrequited love, but she actually voice it out. Anyway, I just really love this webtoon. I wanted to learn more about Gaon's life before he became a ghost and after he and Haram finally got together. I wanted to see more of Hanbit and how he becomes more sensitive to other people's feelings. I wanted to see more of Eden who's had a brother complex for Gaon meet his match as well. I wanted to know more about Garam and Hansol's blooming relationship, Bakha and Yeojin's on-and-off relationship, and I wanted some shounen ai for Mokyong (?) and Ran. XD I also wanted to see more of Purple hyung... I even wanted to see how Sujin was after the whole mess. Most importantly, I wanted to know more about how the supernatural phenomenon happened. Like, was it always like that? Or was it only the two of them who experienced their memories being sealed in one of their belongings? Anyway, I wanted to know more of this phenomenon and I wished to see more "ghosts" meet the ones who can see them and read about their stories too. Ahh, too much wishful thinking, eh? I wish I could at least make a fanfiction or something. This is very inspiring.

It was painful but sweet. Ahh.. What should I do if it were me? Will I really be able to calmly do what Tarou did? It hurt a lot reading this, what more experiencing it. I'm glad Takahiro remained faithful though he was confused. I mean I'm glad he didn't act against his instincts just because it's unusual for him. Like, he thoight he was in love with Tae and only confused his attraction with Tarou bec they looked alike. After all, in his memory, he was straight, so it made more sense that it was Tae he was in love with. I'm glad he followed his heart. But ugh.. Really what if this happened to me and my lover? If he tells me not to spoil anything about thr period he's forgotten, including his lover? It made sense though. Like, even if he's told someone is his lover, it's not like he'd remember all those feelings miraculously..