kei_k's manga / #Long-haired Male(12)

Her plan of revenge was so foolish. I mean, sure, if she wanted to make him feel what she did, she could've done it without actually sleeping with him. I mean, how could you even stomach sleeping with someone you hate so much? Oh well, they say there's a thin line between love and hate, and she was certainly not even firm with her resolution.

My thoughts are quite overflowing that I want to write a separate entry for this one. Anyway, I have mixed emotions about the ending. I saw it coming, that she'd probably end up with him (Taehyun) since he was the first guy shown in the beginning, and we saw them interact more that the childhood friend (Jinhoo), and she was blinded 'til the end with the angelic facade of Heewon, who was actually a wild chick. It was dissatisfying, perhaps because until the end, we only got comedic parts from the main couple, and even the ending for Jinhoo was melodramatic, leaving us thinking that he still loves Joonha but he'll marry Hyejin anyway since she's been with him for a long time and he knows that she needs him so much. It just makes us feel more sympathetic towards him, when we should've shifted our feelings for Taehyun. I mean, man, I know they spent a lot of time together as partners, which totally made Joonha comfortable around him whether she acted masculine or feminine, but I wish we actually got to see more scenes where she shows her feelings more earnestly. Hey, sure she initiated some kisses towards the end, but like Taehyun said, they didn't even feel romantic or what. If only we were shown more of them, and show that Jinhoo has truly moved on before marrying Hyejin, then it would've been fantastic. Sure, I disliked Hyejin at times, but I still find it unfair to have him marry her just like that. I know he liked her, but he admitted that he didn't love her. Well, of course, he could just learn to love her afterwards, but having those lingering feelings for Joonha wouldn't help too much. Well, she's kinda desperate because she knew she could never win against Joonha so she'd grab the best opportunity to keep him regardless if she's truly loved or what, as long as they're together. It's like, she knows that she's liked, but she's still hoping to be his number one. Well, I just hope that things work out well for them, since I wouldn't want Jinhoo to pursue Joonha in the future after he's married. Imagine, if in the future, they meet again, and he knew her secret or realized that Joonha's truly a girl now, then his feelings came rushing back to him, losing his reasons and pursuing her. Man, that's be so bad. Not only would he be cheating, but he'd get in the way of the relationship Taehyun's worked so hard to build. If it were me, I'd tell him off, and say, "You had your chance before, but you blew it when you chose her over me. I can't blame you though, because that's the guy you've always been -- gentle, faithful and chivalrous. You can stay that way from now on, too. You've gone by without me for the past few years, you'll get by in the next years as well. This is it, you'll always be a part of me, as Kim Jinhoo, my forever friend, not as a man. I am happy now, building my life with someone who loves me after everything I've been through. He's been with me at my worst, and he made me feel alive again. I would not risk to hurt him anymore than I've had. Goodbye."

I really liked Bokit (Donghui), and how he remained faithful, dedicated and patient with Myunghae. I wish he'd be like that even when they become adults. He's quite ideal since he's a player, but not a player (if you know what I mean ;D). I wish Myunghae beat him up less and showed him more appreciation though.

I have mixed feelings for this manga. It was sad seeing how Hanzo (let's use this for the lead) changed after Sara's counterfeit wedding plan. He became too strict and even overbearing at times. When he took Usagi out and left her outside the gate after she declared she didn't want to practice anymore, it was disappointing to see how he was too coldhearted to bear leaving her there. I mean, seeing the art, I was just heartbroken. Anyway, Usagi's naivety was annoying at times, especially because she caused a lot of troubles as well. Well, her strong point is that she's a great medicine maker despite being inefficient in ninjutsu. About their love, well, it took time for Hanzo to fall for her, but I wish it was further elaborated. I mean, he was in love with Sara because she was his ideal and even when Sara and Hanzou were back together, he still longed for her. So, anyway, what made him fall for Usagi? Perhaps because she was persistent and she was always vocal about her feelings for him. I mean, even during the race when Goemon kissed her in front of Hanzo, she quickly defended herself. I guess that's when Hanzo really "looked" at Usagi. It was a point where he felt threatened by Goemon, so he finally gave her a chance. For Usagi, well, honestly, the way she fell in love with him was very typical. It was love at first sight. Seeing how handsome/hot he was, she even attempted to escape the marriage to pursue this guy who helped her (Hanzo). It was superficial. Then, what? She went after him despite being treated harshly. It's like she's already convinced that despite being treated harshly, Hanzo's still kind. Well, I liked that about her too. I mean, the time when she was kicked out, she was aware that she was also at fault so she accepted it as Hanzo's kindness to make her realize her mistake. Anyway, Usagi got kissed by different guys (Goemon, Yuki, Ranmaru) but I'm glad Hanzo was mostly indifferent with women so I didn't get my heart broken so much. After all, I wanted a male lead who'd be faithful only to his female lead. I didn't like how Usagi was so dependent on Goemon, though. She was totally insensitive to his feelings. Even towards Yuki. I can't believe she asked him to marry her after seeing the towel she gave him! I mean, if she were to marry someone who cared for her too much, why didn't she pick Goemon, who went more ups and downs for her sake? I just didn't understand her logic. As for the plot, it was honestly quite messy. I mean, at one point, it was about Usagi working her way towards Hanzo as his bride, then it focused on her being a medicine maker, then towards the end, the plot was more of the history about Nobunaga and the others. They felt like side characters to me because I was more interested on the historical figures presented which I started to recognize because of HaruDaite. XD

Well, that was quite a long journey. I enjoyed the world HMR created for this, but I would've loved to see more of Bia's world incorporated to the story. It was enjoyable, but I was annoyed a lot of times with Bia's actions and behavior. She's very indecisive and troublesome to the point where, even though she's supposed to be a strong female lead, she just ends up being a damsel in distress. I was so irked, when in the last few chapters, she's gotten herself kidnapped by MuYeong AGAIN because she decided to ditch the guards to "talk" to GaYeon when clearly, the war has not ended completely. She's too naive until the end, and I think she's very self-centered, too. In the earlier chapters, I disliked how rude and willful she was. Sure, she's from another world and she's uncomfortable, but the least she could do was to at least quietly observe. It's not like she was really being abused. In fact, the times she's gotten hurt were truly because of her foolish actions and behavior. I would've liked her better if she were more firm with her decisions as well. Like, I was annoyed when she kept on betraying Yoo Baek for Mu Yeong. I mean, sure, he's basically clean in her slate since it was the previous Bia that was his target, but the way she acted towards Yoo Baek, who was actually nice and gentle to her, was too much. I just wanted to pull her hair when she admitted to herself that she liked Yoo Baek. Duh, she was always mean to him and even betrayed him for Mu Yeong. Sure, she's being kind to Mu Yeong because she believed that only he could help her go back to her world. But she's too foolish to trust an enemy that easily. It's not like she's the only one affected by her actions. She actually caused a lot of trouble to others because she kept on thinking only of herself. I mean, she's all alone in a different world and I understand that she wants to save herself, but if she just thought more clearly, she wouldn't have caused so much trouble. Anyway, I was still pissed a her towards the end, with the monster taking over Mu Yeong's form and luring her to come and leave Yoo Baek. She's very much tempted already! If she didn't see the reflection, she would've betrayed Yoo Baek AGAIN. Like, girl, make up your mind for once! I know Yoo Baek promised that when the war's over, they'll never have to part anymore, but Bia's just too self-centered that she can't even try to compromise. She acted spoiled until the end. Duh, Yoo Baek's an emperor and she's an empress. She's lucky enough that her workload's not being given so strictly and that Yoo Baek has no eyes for other women, and she's still like that. Ugh. I think the only times I liked her was when she was in her world and a few times when she's eating. LOL.