blue's manga / #amnesia(4)

this gave me so much anxiety i couldn't read fast enough. the amount of plot twist kept me on my feet i cant wait to read more! man i honestly don’t remember reading this. i didn't even know it was finished. all i have to say is when he found out the truth about the uke losing his memory and that he wasn’t a bad guy made me happy. i hate the brother so much, no one even found out that the previous trauma was a huge factor for why he lost his memory. well, it all worked out in the end. i just hope the secretary joins the dark side and became bi or gay.

from the description, i thought oh a cute quirky story. but NO when i say i bawled my eyes out. i cried so hard, my shirt is soaked. and even though it’s all explained that he is alive and a happy ending im still crying!!! this was a beautiful tragedy non-tragedy and i loved every moment.

The story was enjoyable but I didn’t like how the author did the plot. There was just a lot of smut even during the sad times where there should’ve been hardship in my opinion. My heart did break when he left. It just felt like confusion and not a lot of depth into their emotions. I would’ve liked more of them fighting to be together and less sexual advances.

I would love to read a prequel on how they met. this story was so sweet and I cried. same-sex relationships are just like any relationship but I get not wanting to take away someone’s chances. I get the weight but you have to talk about it. I remember telling my partner that I couldn’t have her child and I started crying and wanted to end things she said that she couldn’t have my child either and asked if I still loved her. of course, I loved her! I don’t care about that I just wanted to be with her. “it’s the same for me so why can’t you accept my choice,” that was the biggest realization that it wasn’t my choice to decide her future. it was my choice to define what happiness is to her. I just wanted her to be happy and because of society and my family I didn’t think I was enough, I thought she could find true happiness with a man, what awful irony. I went against everything I believed because when I was faced with a reality I didn’t want her to lose people as I did. I understand why he did it and I understand why the seme was so mad. this story was beautiful and im happy I came across it. I hope a day comes when we don’t have to second guess ourselves when it comes to happiness.