blue's manga / #dark(25)

just to make clear killing stalking is not a yaoi/bl it is a psychological thriller. this messed up my mind. why did that wife's husband that was another victim have such similar wounds we saw as sangwoo when he was rescued? does bum die by being hit by a car? he's so messed up mentally im not sure he could ever recover or live a life without abuse. sangwoo and bum did make a promise to both die, perhaps a tragic ending like this is the best option. its been weeks i'm still traumatized.

this story made me anxious, i was wanting to rush through because it was so good. the color and character developments kept me drawn in till the very end. the ending felt rushed and i feel like though the characters are together they are still far apart from each other. they deserved to be together but it doesn't look like they got the happy ending i was expecting.

I’m 10 chapters in and honestly I know I was warned but I didn’t expect this story to be so real. I’m a woman, POC, and queer - I haven’t experienced bullying to this extent but I have received the hate. I’ve been called the n-word and told to die. I’ve received a large number of hate from white people. I have never understood where their hate comes from but even in this awful shitty world, they are more acceptable than me. I don’t think I’m a sin or flaw but that didn’t make their words and actions hurt anymore. feeling isolated and I can’t deny that I’ve wished I was white. I think this will be hard to read and I can’t prepare myself but I’ve wanted to read it for years so I’ll try my best. I also think the mc was raped and is being blackmailed and that makes me sick. even in a world where same-sex marriage is allowed people would rather kill us than let us live peacefully. even now the year 2022 people want to revoke our rights and think we are mentally ill. chapter 47 - they have rekindled and I am happy. I still have many questions and I know I’m only halfway through the story but I hope it ends in a good way. this story has so much hate and it hurts to read. having religious parents and being disowned is a feeling I can’t explain - it just hurts so much. I respect all religions until people use their religion as an excuse to spread hate and discrimination. this story is no different than the real world. 83.1 completed - ah so many feelings I was honestly worried Simon wasn’t waking up. I’m happy Conor's mother stood up against the church and stood by her son. I know it’s not simple for those devoted to the church to leave so it meant a lot. the author truly put anything uncivilized and problematic into one story. I know it’s not my joy to determine who is good or bad, honestly, it’s not anyone's that’s why we have laws and regulations. I think those who needed to die died - they were not human they were monsters. the world is full of disgusting monsters and the worst part is they could’ve been sweet people that faced darkness. gale was raped by that disgusting pig and so much more happened to him but he looked truly kind and happy at one point - he wasn’t born evil but was forced to become evil to feel human. those who can’t live without hate do not deserve to go to the same place as people who live peacefully and respect others. the bible has been altered so much and priests are living in mansions. I respect all religions but I do not respect people who use their religion for justification to discriminate and be hateful to others. if God does exist I refuse to believe the world we live in is the one he wanted - a world where people are killed for love, a world where ethnicity determines your worth. I think the author did great and I'm happy I put this off for so long, it was a difficult story but a realistic one. I could say so much more but I’m sleepy. I am happy all worked out and I truly wish that Gale got his revenge against their “father.”

i am trying so hard to read this but all i can think about is killing stalking. ugh, i guess it’s the art style. also, why is this giving me so much second-hand embarrassment! the nipples have me cackling. this isn't easy to read at all, every time i see his scars it makes my heart stop and i look at my own. i feel like picking the blade up again, the more i read this the more the pain i've pushed down is starting to come back. if you are suffering from depression or have suicidal thoughts please read this with caution!!! usually, i can read pretty fast but this one is not easy at all, i keep having to shut my computer and taking a deep breath. i feel my heart racing and i feel empty. just be safe and don't self-harm as much as you may want to please stay strong, we've all made it this far by fighting, don't lose your battle. i finished. it took a while but it was worth it, this story is unlike any BL that ive read and i appreciate it so much. the ending did not disappoint i found the overall story realistic and the ending was good. i appreciate the author for acknowledging that just because they found each other the dark days won't go away. this gave me joy, i smiled, i laughed, i cried, i paused and looked at myself. i feel reassured that i might think my life is meaningless but someone around me may not. i realized that its okay to feel pain for a long time because hopefully one day my life will be filled with more light than darkness.

i won't lie i haven't read this and ill probably never have the courage to after watching the anime. however, i wanted to leave a rating, not a day goes by that this doesn't cross my mind and make my heart shatter. one of the best animes and mangas ever.

in the end, they were both twisted. they were both wartime in a story that was nearly poetic. alex killed not out of anger or hatred he did it to entrap the feeling of those that loved and cared for him. was he a killer of course but in a way it was beautiful. i wonder if people will tie the murders stopping and the author of those books stopping. i wonder if things will be connected or if clark will continue living his life as dark as the killer that loved him. how he interacted with alex and how he was almost always a step ahead of him. he knew how to give alex exactly what he wanted and also take it all away without any facial expressions. even, in the end, no one but him knows the real story. It's as if clark is keeping alex hidden and now he’s just another book in his collection of many.

this story is beautiful but fucked up. the first thirty chapters where heart-wrenching, i will admit i cried. the dark art, the shitty mothers, the way two men came together that have experienced utter betrayal by the ones they trusted. all these things mad they story even more hard to understand. the more i read this the more i love hosoo's best friends, the pregnant lady has captured all my support. i wish they hadn't cut ties with their younger siblings, it's mostly misunderstandings, all they wanted to do was help they just approached the solution wrong. also, the manger is sexier with his hair down and i stand by that he also looks ages younger.

I don’t understand why the ratings for this are so low it’s overall a good story with an interesting plot. is it fucked up? 100% yes but that doesn’t make the work shitty. it’s a good psychological thriller. the story was crazy and what happened was wrong especially all of the rape but it doesn’t deserve such low ratings. yikes did my mans just get kidnapped again?!?!