So, a little while ago I had this discussion with my brother, as we're both working adults now. There are this social stigma and peer pressure around us (unlike when we're both still young ) that the normal thing to do is to get married. If not, you're weird, or something is wrong with you. But honestly ? seriously? will you ?
It's tiring. Sometimes there are moments of self-acceptance and peace but mostly I'm always nervous, anxious, tired. I'm very lonely and lost. I want to change myself but it seems I don't have enough strength in me to endure the pain of the process.
Being me, at this point of my life, is very tiring.
I hope somehow things get better. 2 reply
All the time... kinda.
People always say I'm messed up and should go seek help.
I get exited when mum comes homes late because I always hope she's been in an accident and died. I mean I get REALLY exited and I REALLY hope.
My mum is really childish and annoying, I don't hate her, it would just be REALLY interesting for her to die. I'm only 15 but I...... 2 reply
this is kinda scary tbh. Just some time ago i watched this video about a teenager who killed his own mom with a 20kg hammer, and when he got interviewed as of why he did it, his answer is just ' i don't know. Before i know, i already hit her head 20 times until she finally stop moving'
Then i shared this video to my own parents while asking, why do...... reply
Holy shit, here I am just trying to get my mind off work and I get sliced to 10,000,000 pieces with this sharp, sharp edge. Lucky me, I have my atheism to match your teen angst. Here I go!
Murder is *the end* of suffering because death is end to everything. Killing your mom will not bring her peace or happiness, it will just make her stop existing....... 3 reply
our moms are adults and they make their own decisions on what to do with their lives. Killing your mom (or another person) for that matter is wrong unless in immediate self-defense. There are always ways to help another person. If they're being abused, go to the police. If they're addicts, go to rehab. If they have mental illnesses, get a doctor or...... 1 reply
I tried killing her about 4 or 5 years ago. But it was not for her sake but for my sake. I was raised in domestic violence, abuse and bullying.
Hence, I now have mental disorders. And she was one of the main factors.
But, my mentality has become more stable thanks to psychotherapy that I overcame some of my negative thoughts (including this one)...... reply
