Stay Up Too Late Reading Yaoi

I think I was around 7 or 8 years old when one of my cousin touch my private part I don't know what to do back then I lay on the bed and then I he touch me and then also one of my cousin, from my mother's side, touch my private part too. And now I'm 19 and I just found out that it is a sexual assault because that cousin showed up and then the memories came back all clear. I think this is one of the reasons why I am afraid of man now.

When I was in middle school I had a sir and that sir was a pedo and I just learned that too.

I am afraid that I will never recovered from all of this discoveries.

English is not my first language so please forgive me if I have any grammar mistake. Thank you hope u have a good day or night.

I have missed so many fucking days of class, and there's a shit ton if work I havnt done. Out of the 6 classes I take I'm failing like 3. Ima just name some work I have to make up in classes.

Math
•Many ixls (a math problem website or some shit)
•Like 4 fuckin sheets of hw

L.A
•A whole fuckin essay on wether or not students should get payed for going to school
•An introduction and summary of a book

Science
•A drawing of an ecosystem with animals and a little summary on what they are in the ecosystem

Tech?
Idk what the fuck this class is actually called but we usually just answer questions about URLs and website domains and shit. But I have a lot of papers to make up.

Stupid fucking career investigation
• THIS CLASS IS THE DUMBEST SHIT EVER
•I have a really low fucking grade (58) bc I joined that class like halfway through the year and it was a super confusing class. I didnt understand the rules very well cause the teacher for that class didnt explain them to me.