Reject A Love Confession

i used to date this guy in 6th grade mk and im in 11th now ok so keep this in mind when i tell you this. I broke up with him in 7th grade because i found out im gay, and thats not his fault i just didnt realize it until i watched brittanas relationship on GLEE. when i watched it i was like i wish a girl would love me like that WOOPS and dumped. kindly of course. like a week ago he asked me if i wanted to get back together (i never told him i was gay) and i said no sorry im gay. before i started typing this i was reading bj alex and they were cuddling when they loved each other and i am crying because i really want someoe to love me. and then i realized that this boy had not stopped loving me for 5 whole years after i broke up with him. glee ruined my life by making me realize my sexuality. fuck you glee i couldve been faking straightness my whole life without even realizing it. point is, im sad that im lesbian so send happiness please