Please Help Im Dying

Nah I'm not afraid of death. Only thing that's keeping me alive up till now are the people who love me, imagining their pain after I'm dead is really frustrating. Here comes the problem, half of my life I've been trying to make them hate me, so that I can die in peace. Moreover, I wish to die without anyone mourning for my death....   reply

That was my 13th reason   reply

no im a bhaddie, this world would crumble into a million pieces if the sexiest person alive ( me ) were to just vanish one day   reply

eh, Ive seen worse   reply

Yes but it's doesn't mean i really really want to die it's just when someone make me angry or annoyed, raise their voice to me and that make me feel sad   reply