Crying

i did not go through years of racism for the color of my skin and my curly hair just to be called white. i hated my skin color as a child and i still hate having curly hair because of racism but when i finally accepted who and where i was from, tons of strangers online called me white? i just don't think its fair at all... ya'll even excluded most Hispanics from being able to call themselves a POC. people learned Hispanic/Latino wasn't a race and ran with it. i know i cant turn Latinx/Hispanic into a race but if someone asks for my 'race' i will not say i'm white. i don't have anything against white people but as a Latina with years of trauma connected to racism and sexism about my ethnicity, i really hate being perceived as american/white because it makes me feel left out and lost since i finally feel connected to my culture. this just makes me so upset, especially with all the equality movements going around

So my Grandfather died yesterday and for the first time ever I saw my grandma cry and it hurt...its been tough for everyone but I haven't cried yet..I genuinely loved him but I didn't cry...is there something wrong with me? I feel bad for not crying and mourning like everyone else. Does this make me a bad person?