Being A Fucking Edgelord

I was bored, so I went and looked at questions I've answered and asked about 5 years ago on here. And damn that bitch is a character.
The me back then and the me now are totally different, like thinking they were a S while really they are a M. Thinking they were a top while really being a switch
Having a bitchy personally and basically hating everyone while really that's still the same
Thinking they didn't care about ppl opinions while really they did and just hid their emotions well (that's still the same)
They had the confidence of a stuck up bitch

I would rather still had that confidence that I had 5 years ago then now, when I get really bad anxiety for doing something different or get really panicky when ppl are too close to me. Or breaking down when things are too stressful or being in a new environment for too long.