Become Happy Again

For a loong time i didnt date anyone or even had a crush on a human being. It was always too complicated for me and rather spend my time reading/ watching stuff.
Here in the fictional world there were characters, men and women, who immediately took me by storm and i felt like I actually fell in love.
Not cringe imma-dedicate-my-personality-to-you kinda crush but i found myself thinking about these not-real people and wished I had someone like that. Someone who would treat me right and have these silly stories be our real life.
Now when I looked at the real world i grew sad how the dating life worked, toxicity and constant arguments that happend. Sure some had it good but its not a given to have a good partner.
I now have a literal book definition of a perfect boyfriend but tbh if it wasnt him I would still be single cause no way im trying my hands on this bs. Nuh-uh
Anyways do yall have similar feelings for fictional characters/ dating world in general?