I'm Looking For Friends

I dont know why but recently i am feeling void and disassociated like i need a good friend with whom i can talk too but also i am lazy and busy sometimes soo i cant manage friendship also my frnds are busy soo i dont know i just wanna let my emotions out i have great people around me but still i feel this void i dont know why does anyone feels this i think being on this or tumbkr sites are the only places where i can feel happy safe and my true emotions

ı like reading yaoi it is like breathing for me. last couple of years i was so depressed i thought killing myself a few times and yaoi helped me to calm down but i am living in a very conservative community it makes it harder and sometimes when i get back to reality i feel like if they know that i read yaoi they will be disgusted by me. Actually i am quite lonely in the community and it is painfull. İ am looking someone like who would like to share their experience, read yaoi with me and make silly jokes.

Sorry if i make grammer mistakes. i am not native. I am 22 years old and i live in Turkey.